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2012-01-08T23:34:00.002+08:00

The stress

Really forgot the last time i was stressed . definitely not in the work i did as a temp, not when i was army, Not N levels for sure

Poly was stressful at certain times but was manageable since most of the work at in groups. Most stressful prior to uni was actually o levels . The desire to perform well stressed myself really badly ...

Remembered the times i cant even sleep properly at all ... constantly waking up every few hrs and cant sleep until really late as well . Remembered not sleeping at all before my first paper which was for english and later maths

and now in 2012 .. uni is the most stressful as of yet ... one thing i am a direct year 2 entry , i havent study for the past 2 years, mostly importantly the extremely rushed schedules in this school!

last week was week 1 .. tml is week 2 and first day of week 3 we already have to prepare to hand up our 10% assignment !? thats just wtf ... time is really not waiting for us .. with only 1 3 hrs lab tml ... expected to do all as of required ....

exactly 7 days to submit ... and its really difficult not to be stressed although i am really trying to contain myself. The only thing i look forward to currently is to get most out of this 10% by submitting on time ...

supposedly wont be too bad after this assignment ... but i am really not used to this ... Not giving up in anyway when so many of my seniors already get through it ...

Fighting!

2011-12-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

End of temp job

my temp job has ended .... quite unlikely i will do any temp again .. but even if i needed to do ... wont venture to this place again .... just horrible work wise ... too much tracking and scope varies just way too much

had lunch treat ytd and today ....ytd with colleagues and today with pple outside of my department ... have to say its much more fun than eating with my own colleagues ...

reason being is normally we dun talk about anything else besides work... boss is the only person i can relate things outside from work ... thats really the problem with this place ... same department but in different worlds ... can say my personality doesnt clique with any of them except boss tho ...

first time in my life when i eat with a person we dun talk at all ... from the time we walk out of the office => eat => go back office .. things that we talked about seems forced and unnatural ... in the end its awkward. its definitely them and not me ....

anytime when i eat out with pple outside of department ... always can find something to talk about and relate ... includes gossiping of course lol ... all this always comes naturally ....

thats what makes this place(my department) so boring ... and things that makes a place boring is the pple ...

enjoyed my time today with the peeps ... too bad i dun have enough chocolates for everyone ... but handshake to bid goodbye was more than enough ...

weird thing is felt abit sad when i leave the place and knowing most probably wont be back at all .... i realize its really the pple who treated me well that makes me miss this place ... mainly boss and pple(outside of my department) who had helped me all along ...

i sometime wonder why pple not from my department can be even be more helpful than my colleagues !? worse getting scrutinize for the stupidest reason

these pple easily includes around 10-20 persons ... not for them my life here will be so dull and boring ... since my department is always work and more work ...

now ... today i gave around 40 pieces of chocolates ... the usual reply should be thanks , take care, all the best ... one exception i got was "rocher is expensive" ... i mean wtf seriously ... i was the one who bought it and of course i know its expensive ...

i bought it to give to best of my capability ... and thats the shit i get instead ... speechless ... should sent these pple to go for some communicating course and personal development ... something must be wrong in their brain...

although i refuse to agree when others say u are stuck up , screw up ...
sometimes i really think otherwise ... i really can understand why ... u are just too difficult to communicate with

well ... guess there is always these pple everywhere ...

now that i am gone i guess my role will also be passed to the new colleague ... if it really happens .. wish her all the best ... definitely wont be easy ... and its just worse with the combination of pple in the office ...

and to the idiot who gave me so much errands to do even on my last day ... enjoy doing all of that shit urself from next week onwards lol

it came down a mix of frustration and happiness in the end ...

2011-12-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

Mood killer

after a fun day of orientation ... the next day i was really shag like a dog ... the mood is really not there to work at all .. not that i am looking forward for it anyway .. lol just its worse

today actually holds a celebration before christmas ... to be honest i thought it was pretty fun.. the games and jokes ... a pity sometimes boss tries to *dominate* like how she does in work ...

not in terms of skills but the way she argue for points and all that and self imposing rules ... really having fun is more important than winning ... its going to spoil the fun atmosphere in a instant ....

and being a medic and being the one who really knows how to disinfect .... using a tissue to wipe a knife or sissors is not going to do any help at all .. bacteria will be there for sure ... 100% sure ... i suppose tissue can wipe some grease at best ... using water with antiseptic soap is the best available choice

of course .. i didnt say any of this ... just enjoy the company and food ... just felt unnecessary actions such as these is just going to spoil the atmosphere ...

what u think is the best doesnt mean others think its the best ... simple as that .. subjected to different opinions and thats democratic .. when losing u try to argue to say u win ... its a poor display

If even to have fun u have to go through this ... there is really no fun at all in life for her i guess .. everything is by straight routine

Next comes to my great shock(not greatest yet) .... She still expect us to fucking work after a celebration !? really thats wtf ... cant we just enjoy a few hours of slacking after past few weeks of hard work and go home after that ?

really really speechless ... WORK CAN NEVER BE FINISHED . she does not understand obviously

Happen to pass by other departments and there rest are already enjoying their drinks .. not working ... bossess and colleagues playing games .... thats what we call a real celebration ...

ok here comes the final shock ... she told me to stay back and finish my work ... and the task given to me is just 20 minutes before knock off ... realllllly ? ? ? ? ? WTF ? its a simple work ... but u have to tell me only a few minutes before i go home. ...

i was abit frustrated ... she really want us to work till the very last minute ... of course i just did the work swiftly and went off ... stayed for extra 3-4 minutes i think ... even when i told her i had smth on ... she still insist for me to stay ... which i really dun give a shit ....

but phew ... this shit day is over ... and just last 4 more days to go ... the reason i am holding back ... is for the pay ...

today went to get some pens and a new bag ... it really must be age but i dun fancy those flashy looking bags or anything too striking unlike the past... simplicity is my best bet .... went for a leather one instead ... just nice for a laptop as well

2011-12-22T23:39:00.002+08:00

orientation day

took a day off for orientation today .. well one thing is to get out of office. The next is to get to know pple in the class which will be beneficial for at least until i graduate ...

Even for the first day ... can easily tell who are the smart alexes ... those with problems ... and those i can click with ... just the way they talk u will understand ...

orientation itself was pretty standard .. usual ice breaking and stuff ... but problem comes when pple start leaving ... in the end my group was only down to 2 ... i was wet ever since i played the game till the time i took a bus home and i am still wet ... forget to bring towel lol

2 guys left earlier to avoid being wet just because there are water games involved ... dun really know what to say ... both served army before ... on top of that even girls are playing it ... they really shouldnt use that reason to leave ...

initially i wanted to leave earlier ... but drop the idea for my ogl's sake ... me and the other guy decided to stay all the way till the end ... the planners and logistics did the hard work after all

this time round was a mix of psychology students as well ... so there was more girls ... mostly guys for my course as expected ... and yes ... these girls are making all the ladies in my company look like expired products ... Its the youth these young girls possess ...

was really lucky to get to know a few good ones i can work with ... even more surprise to see a friend from my poly course ... and another army friend in medical training institute ... really lucky

During orientation there is this particular girl that caught my eye in a instant ... there are several decent looking ones but just her .. something special

almost wanted to get her handphone no when i got a few brief seconds talking to her ... but just felt weird and decided not to ... and especially not with around 100 pple around that can see very easily ...

not sure whether i get another chance to see her again ? if yes its going to be sure i am trying .. if not then thats too bad for me haha ... studies are priority this time round tho ... no more fooling around like what i did in year 1 poly ...

2011-12-18T21:40:00.003+08:00

8 official days left !

last 2 weeks ... my mode will be switched to *i dun give a shit* mode after this they can enjoy doing the dirty shit for themselves ... except for 2 pple i regard as colleagues ... dun need to say out because its obvious

btw i will not give in this much if i am perm staff .. plz get this into ur thick dumb skulls ... i just choose to be humble doesnt mean ur should take advantage of it .... and choose to do so only for the pay nothing else

this week just going to get some decent g2 pens , a decent bag , and some clothes ... some of my favorite old ones just dun fit anymore ... period of 2 years and changed quite alot

its been very long since i get myself these stuff .... not for indulge but for necessity .... Have learned to stay simple and it suits me best ...

g2 pilot pens has been serving me very well since sec sch days ... easily replaced .. just that my hand writing dun do any justice for these pens tho lol

remembered my very first few days ... my boss will always asked me to write down ... i scribbled real fast that i cant even read what i am writing ...i certainly dun belong to the type who likes to read from paper to do things ...

everything will be in the head with practise .. in the end it will be me doing the stuff not the manual ..

Just 2 days back over at uss ... At first we were required to take photo of 4 members on the roller coaster ... Few pple started to op out so when i was asked ... i just agreed immediately eventhough i had never sat on a full version roller coaster before ....

the only ones i sat was at genting but it was a really linear one with 2-3 slides down and thats it ...

When it was free and easy time ... in a group of 4 i just said casually *how good it will be if we have some time to take the roller coaster* 2 opted out and only left with 2 of us to take it ... with a 15 minutes wait ...

Its not about the fun of roller coaster ... its the person u go with that makes u want to try it .. i dun even crave for the thrill of it when i said going to amusement park's purpose is to take those rides

During our turn ... and everything secured ... my inexperience and my heart starts to raze with excitement ... tried my best not to show any anxiety i was asked "first time taking a roller coaster ? "

my pride decided to lie " No , i took a few times when i was at genting" not completely a lie tho lol .. I get to know she took several times at other places ...

throughout u can really see lots of youngsters and teenagers are really enjoying it ... as for myself ... my flights at air force helped ... that is also a reason why i am not afraid of heights perhaps ...

was pretty fun and thrilling .. but really short ... dun really crave for it ... just felt it will be good to at least give it a try ... like how some spoilers who think it isnt safe shouldnt take it ... anyway u are an old hag ... old hag shouldnt try ... dying on the spot probably will make things abit weird ... no hard feelings tho lol

End of the month already allocate the pple i really want to thank with some simple treats ... she is definitely one of them

2011-12-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

Insight

today is company cohesion day ... Had an outing over at uss ... basically its just finding places and taking pictures ... very much like treasure hunting game played back in my poly days

not even fun in the first place and have to endure the really humid weather .. just sweating the entire time and its really defeating the purpose of going there ....

should take more time to try out the activities ... rather than just taking pictures ... really boring

the only light came around 5 pm onwards when we started to que for transformers ... the waiting time really no joke ... a friggin 1 hr and repeatably showing the same video over and over again over the lcd screen at the waiting area

got tired of waiting and the conversation started by *dominator* just simply boring. half the time just keep hearing her talking non-stop ... the rest just nod their heads every now and then ... from my perspective ... just to entertain her ...

but sometime upon queing u would think why would anyone want to wait that long just for that 5 minutes of show ... simply its really worth it ... seeing than its believing .. u need to watch and u will understand

after that was the roller coaster ... there is 2 version .. one with support for ur feet and one without which is the blue one ... one female staff also working in the company suggest to try that ... the other who didnt wanted to go took our belonging instead

while waiting for roller coaster ... also get to know more about her ... nothing too personal but insights over the company in general .. sometimes its really good to hear things from other perspectives ...

everyone have different views ... and only by listening to all sides u will know whats going on in general WHICH most pple just take this lightly ... all thats going on here is just throw here and there ... nothing get done .. fuck load of politics ...

but whats really different of her as compared to most if not all the female staffs over here ... one word class or elegance ... why is it so ?

she happens to have a very good personality, high qualifications,looks and most of all ... not arrogant at all despite her qualifications ... really sociable ...

and here we have some pple with just o levels, just because she works long start to play along with seniority ... really thats what i call fail.. a old hag trying to act cute and fat like a pig ... the worst traits of everything in one package ... why would the company hire pple with such poor profile?

i also knows very clearly why pple like her wont be leaving for a better job ... because she will never find anything else outside ...the only thing keeping her here ... she works really long and nobody wants to take over her place . fullstop

was abit surprised i talked more personal stuff with her than my very own colleagues in my department ... she will probably be the only person who knows my reason for not going in the morning today

always feel class is something thats shown within ... u work ur way and other pple will judge u ... just simply from the way u talk,dress, u socialize u will be able to judge easily

more often than not ... there are failures who thinks they are judged with high ratings or start acting with class with no reason ...really common among ladies to display elegance ... and over here ... too many ... tries really hard to use complicated words , disorganized, massive make up, ah soh and so on

this fine lady just beats them all hands down ... very minimal make up and very lady like ... Only one more that comes close would be one similar lady but from other department ...

anyway hope she dun stay too long over here... really think she deserves a better place without so much shit and crap over here ... what really good point she mention to me was qualifications really plays apart in efficiency ... she didnt say this directly but this was thee point made ...

when u have a degree for example ... there will always a difference between working with another degree holder compared to someone with psle or o levels imo ... and there just a big bunch of mix over here ... ranging from o levels all the way till masters ...

when going home today .. just thought of all this stuff in my mind .... and didnt bring my earpiece today ... one of the very few occasions i commute without music ... its really good to know there are fine ladies out there ... but i think ratio is perhaps 1 in every 10 ...

hope i can meet another girl with such personality ...

2011-12-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

bullet train

tml is already thusday ! seriously dunno what the hell happen for the past 3 days ... its just reach office - work - lunch - work go home ...

its just the exact same thing everytime ... but just too occupied with work ... really lots to do .. and before i know it... its already time to knock off ... and yes working all the way till the last minute is really terrible ..

uber shag .. today on the way back home .. .i saw a killer ... whos the killer i am talking about ... its the way a mother treats a child makes her look like a killer ...

let me list down what this bitch did and everyone just stared what she was doing the entire time ...

1) she use a handkerchief to cover the baby's face ENTIRELY to wipe his tears and not once a friggin couple of times ... speechless ... needless to say it only made the crying much louder

2) shouting to a baby not to cry ... really can a baby understand any shit at this point ... it feels like cursing her own baby !? it certainly looks that way to me

3) feeding her baby milk ( i dun care about no eating in mrt rule ) 90 degrees ... thats really wtf ... thats not the way to shut a baby up and its going to choke him

really the whole time pple around was just seeing what the hell she is going to do next ... a bystander directly next to her actually patted the baby's head ... "tough on him" i can literally feel thats what the bystander wanted to say ...

treating a baby with a role of a commander ... i myself watched in dismay .. and without a doubt she doesnt even look local ....one thing for sure ... she fail miserably ... and it was made known to all the bystanders

so friggin impatient ... not sure what else she is capable of doing ... i wont be surprised the kid grow up with depression ... and sucks to be the baby

then again .. we are no one to interfere and personally i wont ... its other families affair .. but deep inside u really want to help out the victim ...

2011-12-12T22:39:00.002+08:00

days of hard styling

Enter any toilets in poly ... u will be seeing everyone twisting and styling their hair ... a very common side ... hardcore ones even bring their styling wax and continue to style in toilet ...

well ... when it becomes a habit u will have the tendency to do it everywhere ... even ur work place lol ... u constantly just want to style ur hair good or bad with ur hands ... its the urge

and i am trying really hard not to do this too often lol ... thats the problem with using wax ... but still not as bad as i was in poly ... because my hair condition back then was much worse with often dying of hair which made my hair really fragile ...

and wind blows usually just mess my hair style completely ... but now that my hair is much thicker is less prone ... currently using a stronger wax than before and can hold much better ... infact it hold one whole day for me today and with very minimal *adjusting* if u know what i mean

the down side is its really very difficult when applying and to style initially ... because its friggin sticky .. and once its out of the sticky zone it will be hard ... and i only use less than a half thumb of wax ...

back to the days i will discuss among my good friends ... and we all bought different colors of gatsby wax to try and review ... but these days i just want to keep my hair simple and not too funky ... probably wont dye my hair at all even in future ....

black color hair suits asian the best ...

2011-12-11T22:44:00.002+08:00

aching

referring to my legs ... jogging for 2 days straight. Actually my legs still aching even today .. but thats not going to stop me for some running ... abit more strenuous .. but able to deal with it

aching is also a good sign since it means the jogging is in effect till the extend of aching ... and always feel very refresh and less tired ... can easily feel a better blood circulation for all these effects

and while running today ... the usual inconsiderate smokers who love to smoke and walk at the same time ... in the end its the pple at the back have to bear with these 2nd hand smoke ...

my usual routine is to run the side and just dash across these idiots even if i have to run on the grass or road ...

thinking of routine also reminds me of my daily route of commuting to work ... that very few things i hate always re-surface again everyday ... already mentioned smokers ... but instead of running pass ... i just walk really fast and over take them ...

u will be seeing lots of buses picking up workers at bus stops and such ... and what some pple do to save time is to cross the road while passengers board the bus ... and yes with obstructed view and despite the possibility of other vehicles that are also driving along the road ... pple still choose to cross ...

really is there a need to rush till this extend ? can always see drivers getting very frustrated with their hand signals ... pple love to cross and expect vehicles to stop for them ... most common among those ah sohs though ... not really shock because i am seeing this just about everyday ...

i admit i jaywalk too .. but i made sure i have 100% view of incoming vehicles before crossing ... these pple are crossing blindly and drivers have to watch out more for those ...

mrt boarding during the day may not be pack but its a different story in the evening ... there will always be pple to stand right in front of the doors and obstruct passengers who needs to alight ... the worst are pple at ur back can just pretend to cut ur que and pretend there were infront of the que ...

sometimes really tempted to just tell them off ... but really whats the use ... and after a tiring day ... not much energy to do that

I believe there are still more .. but these in particular i really cant stand it ...the kiasu mentality that kicks in ... forgetting all about being considerate ... an ugly side ... but nothing others can do but to just let it pass

2011-12-10T22:45:00.002+08:00

Showing ur true self

How much in percentage do u show ur true self ? thats the question i asked myself sometimes ... my answer would be it varies

in work is about 20% ... reason being ... eyes and mouths are everywhere .. u really wont know who is listening , who is spreading ... as a matter of fact ... i dun really trust many pple over here ... even the pple whom i have to trust .. i always make sure i keep a certain distance ...

friends and colleagues is 2 different things ... but i think its work that prevent that from happening ... when shit happens will cause a rift deep inside ... and personally ... some where within there is always grudge among my colleagues ... there is always thing i dun enjoy doing for them

i always choose to stay neutral.... not getting involved in politics ... and being really quiet ... just obeying orders ...

among class mates and my ns buddies will be around 80-90% .. and really old friends will be 100% .... even personal things u can pour out completely ...

so thats me ... not sure how it is for the rest ... but there will always be things u dun wish everyone will know.

Ever since my days in air force ... my physical workout has been much lesser

jogging on weekdays are non-existent ... never had the energy to do anything else but to rest when i reached home ...

physical workout starts from the mind ... especially for running .. u need a strong one. My mind is only telling me not to run because i am really tired lol ... and this happens everyday after work ...

Things should be different once sch starts .. more time for me to manage ... and i really cant stress enough how much i hate waking up so damn early for work ...

would very much prefer either 9-6 or 8-5 instead of 8.30-6 or 8-5.30 ... u will be amazed how much that 30 minutes can do sometimes ... and its alot for me ... but not too bad for part time since its extra 30 minutes of pay ... definitely a thumbs down for full time extra 30 minutes of rest or going home 30 minutes earlier ...

anyway 3 more weeks before getting the fuck out of this place ... with most of the things settled ... uni life is waiting for me already ... and i cant wait for it to start !

there are friends who is working and taking part time .. yes its a more viable option ... u at least have income but .. 2 major cons ...

u dun have a social life in school and its going to be taxing for ur mind ... my opinion ... university for most pple would be the last stage of ur education path ... by taking part time is just not utilizing ur student life completely ...

i certainly do not want to skip this ... besides after this will be 100% in the work force ... really nothing to miss out .. but certainly not everyone's perception ... just felt money will never be earned enough

2011-12-05T22:21:00.002+08:00

Commence of the last month

1st day without boss .. and the feeling is different .. everyone tends to be more relax ... and as for myself .. i am able to really do work without any interruption ...

went to amk hub this time with another new colleague tho ... ate food from miniwok stall ... remembered eating the exact same thing i used to had during poly at food junction ...

walk pass s-11 and really .. good old days of poly really kicks in .. initial-d during 2 hr break ... and chilling over at s-11 .. and playing lan at the cinema ... going to class there after ... its so fun

anyway ... i am really getting very tired of the same shit everyday over here ... its not the work i am doing ... its the pple who really dun understand my role ...

plz stop asking me too many questions ... just a temp doing my job ... u should be spending the time asking the originator instead of me .. i know nuts ... Plz also dun show displeasure when i dun give a shit about this work lol

it should be clear to u what a temp means and what a temp wants ... just the pay and nth else ... tired seeing the same pple giving trouble and spoil my day

communication here is so poor ...always one side gets updated and one side dun ... causes a rift among themselves very easily .. but well .. i dun care ... 4 more weeks and i am gone ... but just felt how this place can be so screwed up ...

everything can be resolve very easily if really take the time to settle down and talk ... i know some does ...and some dun .. and things get stucked. How can the head have no idea of whats going on even seeing this screw up ... beats me

2011-11-28T20:01:00.002+08:00

Busy week

Prepared for a very tiring week this week.... quite a few stuff to settle ... mainly my time sheet & study loan .... was really surprised my boss allowed me to take half day off really easily

did not even ask for the reason but asked whether i am taking morning or afternoon off ... the best part for working for this place is really the flexibility ... even eating dun have to be on the dot 12 pm to ... normally would leave earlier and no questions asked

just really lack of communication tho ... its really pure work when working ...during lunch one of the days .. one hr lady thought i would come back to work during my holidays ....

that really wont happen and there is really no reason to .... i dun like the work that much to go back .... to be honest my work is really easy ... no qualms about that ... but the rigid system here makes it otherwise ...

just find there is too many unnecessary stuff that needs to get things done ... and definitely not my style of work ... too much manual work is only asking for human error ... really how to prevent mistakes from manual work ? experience is one thing , being careful is another, or checking ur work like 5 times ?

heard there is quite a number of pple leaving already ... already saw 3 at the moment ... sometimes really thankful i am not into this line in future ... i dun like it how anyone can be into this line as long u have experience since its mostly paper work and cold calling

just like my position, even an o level standard will be able to do it ... and involves too much talking ...

anyway busy as it is ... will be a short one ... cant wait for school to start ....

2011-11-23T21:22:00.003+08:00

Fun lunch

Its starting to get tiring of all the same work over here and always eating at workplace canteen most of the time... even lunching with my colleague ... nothing much to talk about infact a tad boring since he hardly talk and i dun even know what to start for a conversation

its really long since i last had a good laugh and a good chat working over here .. another temp asked me to join him and the others for lunch nearby our workplace ... was hesitant at first because i really need the lunch time nap ... but well i wanted to go anyway ...

2 females went along ... and its funny to see how one of them getting *tackled* on the spot ... i am sure that girl realize it as well because its freaking obvious... well not that i cant understand that kind of feeling ... its normal especially there arent many young girls over here ... sure gets the hype for the guys working here ...

the best part about eating with pple out of ur department is there is no restriction to talk about anything .... i even ate with my boss ... but i believe that day i spoke less than 10 sentences through out ... lots of jokes that was really funny ...

most of us are within the 20's range except 2 senior guys ... but i really dun think age will hinder communication among young and old ... just the individual i would say ... how much are u willing to talk about certain stuff

the food was so so to be honest ... but its the company that makes it worthwhile. Thankfully the weather was really cooling as well ... can feel the heat coming from inside the coffeeshop ..

Wish that guy luck .. i probably wont even know the outcome till i leave ... the other temp actually asked me to extend my time till the same as their contract ends ... but thats really not going to happen ... even if sch starts much later ...

not going to extend for the work i am doing currently ..the scope is just way too wide and undefined ...

next wednesday will be the day to submit my timesheet again ! .. really a chore to travel to orchard after work and going back ... so freaking late by then .. but not much of a choice when it comes to money ... should be expecting slightly more pay this time ... those freaking days of just me and my boss was really tough ...

and to add on OT during that period ... hope it pays off when i see my payslip haha

2011-11-22T22:00:00.002+08:00

politics

who are the ones to suffer in a midst of strong company politics ? its the pple stuck in the middle

already kind of bored to hear quarreling over the phone over and over again ... infact i know whats the main cause of all this ... its the pple that cause this not the workflow ... u always have the choice to talk things out nicely

Personally i just feel politics doesnt do any good in productivity and relations ... its the worst of both ... getting things done does not need to include all this seriously ...

pple are already using key positions/appointments over this ... really ? are we comparing who can scold or prove each other wrong ?

well definitely not my style .. can easily see pple under them are suffering and affected work flow ... only here close to 2 months and i can easily see it

my time with previous company was nothing like this ... although have to say its freaking damn tough in my previous company ... reaching sales target can be stressful but that never stop us from eating together, tea breaks, breaking silly jokes ... most importantly ... helping each other out

work is always work ... during office hrs if everything u only talk about is 100% work ... its so plain boring which is what i am in rite now

this is the only place i prefer to eat alone ... infact ... so far until now ... this is the ONLY place i have eaten alone most of the time lol ... there's not much bonding at all...

This kind of places is definitely last on my list in my job hunt for sure in future ... cant foresee myself staying here any longer ... thankfully after this week will be left around 1 more month

Have to settle administrative work for my uni placing this week tho ... something i really look forward to and motivation of doing part time here ...

2011-10-24T22:34:00.002+08:00

A nostalgic day

its been so long since i last went to amk hub ... today had a chance to go with my colleauge... instantly remember the times i used to hang there sometimes during poly days after school ..

on the bus ride back. seeing students going to nyp just reminds me of those 1pm lessons back then. In the morning always had to weave through the students to catch up morning classes

didnt really stayed too long .. had a bowl of crispy hand made noodles ... not really good .. but is decent for its price ... never really preferred food court ... always 1 or 2 dollars more than hawker centre for air con environment

there will always be pple dressing up like fashion shows to school ... make ups and all that ... well i wont blame them for that ... its a teenager mentality to look good ...

used to be like that ... but simplicity suits me better .. havent been using wax for my hair to work ... always felt time for sleeping is already not enough ... besides my environment is like 70% aunties ... well there is always young ladies over at hr ..

in fact one more new hr lady today ... but just cant be bothered ... not here to hook anyone up anyway ... just want a smooth working experience ... and speaking which .. the bitch is on MC today !

work suddenly feels like a different scope and work environment ! not even exaggerating ... feels so good when she is not around ...no one to pissed me off and i can do my work ..

and speaking of work ... my colleague ask if there is any possibility i will be in this line ... i literally burst out my laughter ... but i managed to imagine myself to suit into this job ... really ... there is just no way ...

my conclusion to myself was ... anything but this ... and especially not here where i have to work with a bitch ... anyway this guy is really a nice and caring guy ... even took time to talk about life and reality in work

he knew i was suffering to work for that bitch ... even talk about it to me during lunch ... which was sincere ... but i first talking about it was lunch with the finance staffs where i let everything out ...

sometime lending a listening ear means a lot ... sincere , not sincere, even casual .. u just have to spent sometime and listen what the other person had to say... u are already a great help ... u just want someone to listen to u ...

really great to know this pple ... time for bed ... tml going to be a great day thanks to our singaporean indians! my favourite of all days is actually the eve of public holidays ...

stay up late and have a good rest

2011-10-21T21:27:00.002+08:00

3 weeks gone

3 weeks just passed like a bullet train ... more or less know personalities of the pple here i am working with.

so far for work load wise is decent , simple to grasp for my scope of work ... the only obstacle here is just that the bitch is always looking for trouble for me ... making my life so difficult that i cant comprehend

why is it so ? i am here to fucking lessen ur workload .. but each and everytime .. ur instruction given to me was shit and u expect me to do a good job ... and u treat me like an enemy not a colleague ... and this is the shit pple i have to work for ?

task given to me first time fresh and new ... u expect me to know everything ?! When i made a mistake .. u make a big fucking fuss and like i committed a crime ... the way u talk is so hostile and sarcastic ...

wtf seriously? cant u teach properly step by step like my the other colleague and my boss ... and ur not even my boss .. u dun have to act like one ... even for a boss is not even as cocky as u

infront of boss u act like a good teacher and when she is not at the spot .. u act like a commander ... ordering this and that ... pple like u will be stuck forever as a slave not a manager ...

but ... my other colleague and boss is not deaf or blind ... my colleague told me to ignore u fucking auntie .. i added a miss infront at the beginning just because i am being humble ... nothing else .. i am tempted to call u a bitch and maybe i should do it on my last day with a _!_

besides my colleague ... pple outside told me about u as well and told me to ignore ... u have a fouled mouth anyway ... beyond any medical cure

today u suddenly talk soooooooooooooooooooooooo nicely after going to boss room ... striking up unnecessary conversation with me and it even gave me a chill ! down right my spine

even a retard can guess what happened ... but no thank you .. i dun prefer the fake personality u have currently ... things wont change overnite ..

i am sure ur fuck up personality will come back real soon ...

anyway ... i am not here forever ... around 2 more months plus (time passing real fast ) i will be out of here ...

2011-10-15T23:53:00.002+08:00

interests in life

few days back . my colleague asked me a question

" what do u want to work as in future? whats ur interest in work?"

to be honest this is really a tough question .. i dun even have any special interest in anything.. hobbies and personal interest just cant be put to practical use in work ... its just too different

even going for IT is not even a interest ... its merely my best choice of option ... the cheapest and the fastest way to get my degree is to continue IT ... switching field was the next best consideration

but time is a luxury that i cant afford ... the extra salary for 1 +1/2 years is alot and switching field doesnt guarantee i will do better in it

finance was my initial switch ... but dropped the idea quickly when the thought of competing with pple who had 3 years of poly experience in the same sector ... and i simply hate calculating .. but its also one of the best cert to go for , considering the availability of jobs for it

everything comes with pros and cons ... the cons of switching will come with extra load and burden

my mind was thinking at the same time when he asked "is there even a job that anyone is interested in and enjoy doing it? " that opportunity is just too rare .. and doesnt happen for everyone ...

but deep inside i know ... ideally .. i just want a decent job , good colleagues to interact and work with, and decent salary to get by ... save money the same time ... spent considerately and of course .. repay my parents

i should not have the feeling that i have to drag myself to work everyday ... waiting for 5.30 to come ... hi and bye to my colleagues to end my day ... looking forward ONLY to ur salary each month is depressing... considering u will be in there for so long ... u really will need to learn to enjoy working there

so ultimately ... whats the biggest consideration for a job for me ? my conclusion will be a company with supportive colleagues and boss .. i dun even mind if its tough

so long i feel its worth it , so long i know my colleagues will watch my back and so long i feel comfortable working with them ..

but how would u even know the personality of ur colleagues before even joining the company ? it just boils down to luck in the end ... luck always plays a part in everything

anyway thats just some food for thought .. it wont happen any time soon to settle down for all that as of yet .. which is the best part ! taking things one step at a time is the best path to lead urself to ... the time to worry about it will come eventually

no point thinking things thats so far away ... it often takes away ur concentration at present and just dont do anything good but extra worries and stress ...

2011-10-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

looking forward to 2012

Been a really long time since i last blogged ... oct 2010 till now ...

time flies and its already 2011 ..my buddies orded .. most are already working .. hardly anyone is pursuing their studies ..

after orded was slacking for around 1 month plus before i decided to do some part time before sch starts ..

the switch from slacking life to a working life was very tough the first day ... imagine ur agent telling u ur work starts rite tml. and for the past months i have been sleeping at late timing likes 2 am and wakes up around 11-12 ...

so the following night i just forced myself to sleep at 11 and wake up at 6 ... and didnt even mention I couldnt even sleep the nite before .. its a horrible day

and today is already my 2nd week ... its fast which is a good thing...

regarding work load wise it can be alot or little depending on my boss and colleagues ... and speaking of colleagues .. there is always one common feature in everywhere (be it in army or work force)

there is always bound to have one very fuck up person to make life difficult for u ... the toughest part was actually get to learn the work without direct guidance ... have to be thankful for my past experience to make life slightly easier for me ...

under a lady boss and shit colleague is a never a good thing... then again. i am not even there to socialize with them... solely to get my pocket money before sch starts ....

sometimes had to mediate myself i am working for the pay lol .. thankfully i have one very nice colleague to help me out at almost everything ...

i got to know some nice pple there tho ... guiding me and etc ... and they are not even from my department ... i just cant understand why pple outside of my department can be nice to me but not the pple i am working for ?they can see i am trying to learn and thus giving me some simple guidance

trying my hardest to serve u guys but u just dun appreciate it ... just show me a shit black face everyday without fail .. plz realize i am just a fucking temp there trying to get some honest earning ... at no time i am trying to screw up .. plz realize this before ur fucking ego chasing everyone away....

my previous attached workplace ... the work load was around 3 times more ... but i have few of the best colleague/friends there with me. Everyday can be busy, but we never fail to eat lunch together, joke and chit chat during working time.

thats what working life is .. being cohesive and have fun where possible ... tough but fun ..

but well .... 3 months is short .. i cant give too much a hoot .. just want my pay as quickly as possible ... today finally collected my altered jeans ... survived with a very loose and screwed up jeans for the past 8 days ...

the feeling to wear it is horrible ... knowing u have to bear with it for another day was equally tough ... finally can just get rid of it ...

well a few things to look foward to tho

1)public holidays
2)orientation
3)school starts :)

in the past ... i always dun appreciate the period of studying .. always complaining about stress and toughness ... teachers will always say studying period if always the best ...

only if u went through everything u will understand the joy just to study and getting good grades and nothing else ... and for now .. i cant wait at all ... i want my sch life back ... wont be as stress free like poly ... but definitely enjoyable ...

2010-10-10T13:52:00.002+08:00

a year finally

finally a year .. 10 more months to go and 7 more months for those batches earlier than me ... nov , dec in 2010 ... jan feb mar apr may june july and finally august 2011 ... and i seriously cant wait .. army thought me how to appreciate my time to the fullest ...

Still missing mornings of styling of hair , attending lectures , preparing for examinations , taking mrt and listening to my iems on travelling ... and i realize its been very long since i ever cared about personal grooming ...

when serving ns .. only punctuality is the the thing that matters .. endurance and will be through it ...

although signing on could mean iron rice bowl for most and some are already doing it .. but well .. i dun feel like making the full use of my life and freedom ... i could have my freedom and will to do the things i really want and nobody can fault me for that ...

civilian life is waiting for most next year .. cant wait for this year to end ... starting to see more guys ording .. i feel happy for them .. they are going to pursue their real interest .. and i am waiting for my turn ...

persevere !!

2010-08-28T23:42:00.002+08:00

Immune

things seems to be endless ... crap and shit just keep awaits for us .. while cancelling our offs wasnt bad enough .. we have to be confined if we fail our test ?

stay in on weekdays ... and additional sat sun stay in .. wow .. fucking hell ... what could be worst ? the news could hit a few pple pretty hard .. as for me .. i am already used to it .. used to being toyed by authorities ... not sure how practical these practices are in the REAL world .. but yea ... these pple are in their own world and works here and only here lol ...

they probably never get toyed like this before ... but yea .. u wont know until u experience it

As pple say we havent seen the worst yet ... there has not been any humanity in here anyway ..

when i keep seeing orded personnel returning to the work place .. i am pretty amazed ... *wow why would anyone want to return here ?* because i definitely wont ... i wont remember a thing over here once i ord for sure ...my mind probably would think *just wasted 2 years of my life .. time to move on*

no memories but nightmares and my endurance and tolerance over all the unreasonable shit... u guys can fuck me with all the way u want but u cant change the fact once i orded u guys cant do any fuck to me ...

i dun care how pple think u are nice or how well u treat others but yea .. my staunch believe u are fuck up never change .. i can be the minority and thats okay for me as long it justify my believes ...
i wont do any crap to extend my ord date and i will endure ... endure till my ord date
go ahead to whatever u think is rite because i dun care

2010-08-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

another bad day

Been pretty bad mood rite after knowing about my offs being canceled ... today was no exception .. pretty moody for the rest of the day ... dun feel like doing anything , dun feel like entertaining anything at all but yea ... my usual self still capable of handling all these

just my emotions constantly suppressed within me .. pretty difficult to act as if nth happened but deep inside me i am pitying myself and being in despair and still need to continue to work .. just pure mental torture

hard to see my friends happily taking their offs when i myself just see them taking offs one by one ... made me wondered why i endured an entire day for those saturdays and getting nth back in repayment ... nsmen will get their pay .. i just get to replendish for an off day to cover to take another off

*ren zai xing bu zai* is the best term to describe my condition ... my soul and heart basically is not there but still able to work ... nth to value out of my entire ns life .. except probably my days with my mates in bmt and smti ... and some good friends over here ... thats about it ..

cant see how any of the work i am doing here is of any help for my future work ... but yea .. work is still work .. the only reason for me to keep doing work is for the sake of my department .. really nth else ..

back from work today ... and was buying some laksa for my mom ... while keeping the coins accidentally drop that bowl of laksa ... was still pretty in a daze when that happened lol .. been gazing around and i was like *fuck .. gonna buy another bowl* ..

yea but the nice lady didnt request for anything and despite me profusely insisted to pay for another take away ..she didnt accept my money at all..without any hesitation just cooked another bowl on the spot ..no signs of irritation or grouchiness from her at all

only thing she asked was to asked to buy from her again next time... probably because i had been buying from her several times before ...

i mean these kind of hawker is pretty rare ... and simple gestures such as this just warm other pple hearts .. why cant more hawkers learn from her ? not just hawkers but why cant others learn more values from her ?

attitude really make a difference ... my whole day was pretty crappy until this moment for today .. she really made my day ... getting all sort of shit from work ... and her gesture is prove that there are still some kind pple out there ...

i am still hanging down there ... thanks guys for showing ur concern .. i wont be defeated this easily ... just pretty tired and moody these few days ... definitely still hanging there ...

2010-08-17T22:12:00.002+08:00

As expected

Start to realize there is nth to look forward to to this shit place... first thing back refresh for work and the fucking first thing i get is 2 offs canceled ... really fuck it

no fucking justice for this ? have been doing covers like 100 times and all the while had been going at the same time ... just because u went this time u consider me late ?

wow .. what kind of fuck is this ... taking our offs just because u think i deserve it ... i understand rank is there for respect .. but dun expect to get any with this kind of shit we are getting

we work like fuck for u and this is the shit we are getting back ...and when i mean fuck its really one of the worst

was never wrong in the first place ... i dun misjudge crap pple like u at all .. i knew rite at the start u were crap to begin with ...

really... u never been in our shoes before ? or u get too much shit from ur fuck life that u are venturing it to us ? u do this easily but u never think hows the feeling of getting this shit

why everyday we must be in fear of getting our offs taken away .. what had we done to u ? we are working hard and being careful for a reason ... but the repayment we get are these ...u mother fuckers are lucky we really cant do any shit to u ... get a fucking life outside to see u can do what u are doing rite now

hope ur fucking bitch sons will go through what we are going through rite now ... having 4 fucking offs taken away for no fucking good reason .. why the fuck do we work hard for then ? we might as well work like shit when i know these are the things i will be getting anyway

Being so fucking demanding ... we are only oblige to accommodate like some dogs ? Why should i be afraid of u ... u are really a nobody outside ...

and its obvious we can tell who u favour more or so ... but yea .. i dun really care .. no fairness at this place anyway ... only looking forward to fuck off from this place everyday .. i wont feel a fuck for anything i do from now on ... feel free to give more comments ...

and come on la .. mean it means mean it ... dun say things like give more opportunities to improve ... thats really utter bullshit... a retard also know u mean it ... i fuck ur mom and saying sorry later is the same thing ...

its u pple who driven me like this rite now ... pple who know me knows what i am ... i dun need to get good judgment from other pple to change myself .. i dun act or wayang because thats never me... i do and say what i really mean

i can really choose how i am going to feel ... so yea .. whatever u will be saying will be emotionless ... this shows how much i care huh ?

but at the same time i cant ignore pple who are still concern ...
sorry man guys .. always prefer to be alone when i am in a bad mood ... or can always just talk about smth else ... not this anymore ... plz dun be offended ...

u guys will be the key for my days in ns really and i cant wait for this to be over ... i will celebrate ur earlier ord dates with u guys and wait for mine ...

2010-08-15T00:28:00.002+08:00

Lifeless , nth in return

been blogging more frequently recently ... basically too much things starts to bottom deep inside me ..

fridays are pre-weekend days .. one of my favourite days unless i have duties .. so what i thought was giving my best shot for the day and have a nice weekend .. instead was presented with more shit and crap awaits for me that i shouldnt go in details ...

Makes me wonder why only bad things are remembered ... times when we worked hard was forgotten so easily ... presented with only negatives in return .. nth positive

we are just nsfs ... severely underpaid .. but made to work so hard .. i dun mind hard work .. but i mind more for injustice ... then again ... this is army .. i guess one of the more practical way is always to suck all of this fuck and get through this 2 years ...

but i cant believe i am wasting so much effort and hard work on this when nothing out of this is appreciated ..why do i have to work in fear ? What have i done to get all of this shit ? All i want is for some peaceful days till i ord ?

from now .. i will probably choose to feel empty for everything i probably do in this *place* ... positive , and probably all negatives .. one ear in and out the other ..

not like life in here will affect my future work ... and i always believe no matter where i go and what i do .. i should work the hardest for the best results .. i wont do it anymore for here ... i am only getting crap and negatives all the time

not like my performance here will lower any of my self-esteem and confidence in my work ... its just all ur losses for forgetting the work i put in ..so long i know it myself clearly

Only thing to keep me here .. are few of my good friends ... thanks guys ... thanks for listening to my whinings, covering my ass when i need help ... nth could been better without ur ... i dun show appreciation but i appreciate it deep inside

i stick to my believes and judgement on certain pple ... i dun have to follow the majority if they think this person is good ... because deep inside i know his screw up ... and probably a few would agree with me but just never really expressed out ...

2010-08-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

Blizzard - Starcraft 2

well , games thats has been waited for 10 years and more .. people have very high expectations ... and those with extremely high expectations will be disappointed for waiting so long but presented with a no quality game ... and yea that was refering to ff13 anyway ...

for sc2 ... i had only played the prequel every now and then for fun ... but it was still fun even though i used to be a war3 player .. now blizzard presents with another successful sc2 with a lot more updated controls from war3 ... it already look like a much better game just like this

anyway .. sc2 would easily be one of the most successful game like all blizzard games :) .. upgraded graphics and smooth control for a rts is first of its kind ... was equally addictive like how it was for me when first playing war3 .. and pretty sure i will continue sc2 for a long time ...

now comes another question .... we will wonder how is e-sports organization in singapore going to make sc2 competitive and organizing tournaments with cash prizes ... that will be the only way for players to train .... and speaking of players ..

i think it will be pretty interesting to see possible war3-converted players and sc players merging into another bigger community ... well that will means it will be more competitive .. but surely much more fun ... looking forward for that ... and cant really wait for that day i will be wearing my clan jacket and going for competitions ...

thats smth i miss doing for so long and hopefully it happen ... but then it will take some more time before i can adapt to sc2 play style . although some fundamentals i will be using is from being an experienced war3 player .. but sc2 is still a completely different game ... need more time and practice ... and might not have the time other than weekends ...

but motivation and interest of playing are the key to go competitive in competitions like right now :) FIGHTING !!!

2010-07-27T20:29:00.002+08:00

2 More months = 1 year

2 more months and i will be corporal to symbolize i have exactly 10 more months to go ... only looking forward to days of my rest these few days ...

lately have been having strolls of walk at my nearby neighborhood ... and realize i have been missing out a lot of stuff .. things like my friday arcade nights at lot 1 ... jogging ... upgrading my audio system etc ..

whats the reason i wonder ... it would have to be frequent duties ... its so often that i often forget whats the feeling to wake up late and fresh on weekends ...

only tiredness and boring routines all over here ... been more sick than ever ... never was once did i get sick for like several years ...

i always wonder what it would be like for me to enter platoon medic army side ... at least i can enjoy my weekends more ?

Feel like rushing and fast forwarding till i ord ... i am sure that will be the most joyous event

... although lots of pple say outside world is just as hard or could be harder than ns ...

but hard it could be .. i feel that the trade off of having freedom to choose how my life would be is invaluable and priceless ...i prefer having the ability to choose....

sigh .. looking forward to ord ...

2010-06-26T01:03:00.002+08:00

Calm down

This title is actually a title of a book i am reading rite now ..a book that teaches one how to control anger ..

well was interested in knowing how to control my anger at first that got me to read this book .. but these few days the stress and lack of rest made me a different person ... a hot-tempered guy with little tolerance for everything ..

even i felt tired today .. i took the time to read it from where i left out previously ...

Having bad sleep for ytd was bad enough ... having pple to irritate u in ur face just made it worse ... having a schedule that will screw 4 consecutive saturdays was just the trigger of all of these ...

i actually dun blame anyone for planning the schedule because they are also having a difficult time planning .. i blame it more on the pple who demand for these covers ... really ... its making me very tired ... and the thought of all these really make me no morale for anything

it made me compare with my dear fellow collegues ... making me envious or jealous for them having lesser duties than i had ... but yea ... thats what i thought .. but end of the day .. comparing anything seems to get me no where as well

i just forgot to realize ... all these comparisons and anger are actually all pointless ... end of the day i still need to continue to do all that crap ... was not the book to made me realize that ... but anger really leads u to be unreasonable , selfish .. all sort of bad personalities that was driven out from me ...

it also reflects alot of me .. and pple only like to remember bad things of a person has done .. never the good things .. its just human nature to choose to remember the bad things ... and i am a living example ... i like to remember who were the ones who always get in my way ..

i still managed to hide all of these pretty well ... just that deep inside .. i really wanted to say out all of these things .... and thankfully .. todays cohesion really helped out alot ... taking a walk and strolling clear's my mind from that work load i had been facing for weeks without etiquette rest

i think i should be doing this more often ... a way to relieve my stress ...
this could be the key for me to ord peacefully ... anger control + stress relieve

2010-06-13T16:48:00.002+08:00

Intake

Each time anyone ord only means there are pple to replace ... 2 guys gone and 2 new guys coming in ... well have to see around 5-6 more intakes to actually ord

each intakes come every 3-4 months ... anyway these 2 weeks schedule is pretty screwed up for me ... the last thing i need is always duties on friday and weekends .. and now comes in a package of 2 this coming weekend ...

havent even included the covers that lasted all the way till 9pm .. to add on to that .. have 2 of my offs canceled just like that .. its pretty screwed up ...

well the golden phrase never change for me to serve and fuck off ... signing on may have a better life for regulars ... but just too much a sacrifice for me

but well ... cant complain too much ... mo's word struck me when i just realize its been quite a while i dun have to use lbv and chiong sua ... and said i was lucky .. agreed without a doubt actually ...

humans ought to be grateful when they are lucky ... i guess it applies for me ...

Quite thankful to the lady to help me change my old specs support (the stuff to support ur specs to ur nose) was quite pleased since i was there for my new specs frame but was offered to get some fix on my old spec ... things like this really made my day ...

medical centre is kinda like a working environment ... pple u hate and u like ... well .. what can i do the pple i hate ? around 1 yr + to see their faces ... i guess life carries on ... perseverance i guess

2010-05-17T18:12:00.002+08:00

perseverance

Been around 2 months of my ns life in medical centre ... now i have a phobia for incidents and casualties .. its really no fun to be involved that situation... had been too happening this few weeks that got me so tired

this isnt a bad vocation at all .. infact once a life time thingy ... humans are always not satisfied with the current... but ultimately .. i still want a peaceful ns life ...

Had seen a mix of fuck up pple and encouraging pple ... then again .. i think every where is like this ... the unfair world that we have to stay in

thats how i reminded myself in ns life so far .... how good or how bad my performance in army is have nth and wont hinder my future ... still .. i would keep a certain standard of myself to achieve a peaceful ns life ...

went for a few covers and one of it being a cover for nsmen .. a few gave me encouragement which i am thankful of ... they are existing proof for getting through ns life ...been seeing pple ord and what not ...

waiting for my turn in a year + time ... and really i cant wait .. i want my civilian life back ... or should i say ... most nsfs are waiting one after another ...

would be around 4 - 5 more intakes before my ord .. fighting!

2010-03-20T19:39:00.003+08:00

Last POP

Pop yesterday and the feeling was pretty good ... most of the buddies and my clique is going seperate ways .... medical centres, navy and air force ... thankfully i gotten a place for airforce ...

During the announcement of our posting was pretty epic ... with mix of emotions , happiness, sadness and even despair ... i really cant imagine what will happen if i am posted to 3 guards ... one of the worst scenario .. stay in + long traveling time ...

anyway .. ytd i thought i actually got into some vocation to become platoon medic ... since most camp divisions(platoon medics) will be read out first .. imagine my reaction when i am the 2nd person out of 210 ...

what comes to my mind was (fuck a platoon medic till i ord ? ) ... and we dun even have an address for our vocation ... only some abbreviations ... but after asking sgt what was the vocation about .. finally shed some light ...

3 months was actually quite long .. and been through quite a lot of stuff ... practical , theory tests ...whichever .. not for the good sgts and buddies around .. it will be a difficult time .. and i think my platoon have few of the best sgts around ... jc batch students that really know their stuff ...

they really do their job to teach us and willing to spent more time during admin time to guide the pple who want to revise for exam and tests ... kudos to u guys ... ur are really worth to be instructors .. and that change my perspective to jc students ...

All the best to my buddies, smti poo2 sgts ... and myself to my new vocation

2010-01-01T22:20:00.003+08:00

Friendships

So far been around 2 weeks with my new vocation ... combat medic ... still remembered on day 1 with all the unfamiliar faces ... at least thought would know a few from my previous bunk mates but no ..

People here are a mix ... most of the pple are either just pass ippt or mostly obese pple who failed their ippt ... me being with around 4-5 pple in the silver category in my own platoon alone ... and one platoon best gold ippt can end up here as well ...

very often u will ask urself why u are with them in the first place while half of my platoon mates are at sispec .... but right now i have accept it as a fact ... It got so bad in day 1 especially when u have no one to turn to that u are engulfed with loneliness ... have to msg my friend for some comfort ..

but within a few days i was already with my new clique of friends ... that few i could open my mind with ... and will be spending 3 more months with ... so far so good ...

my own bmtc bunk mates just called me ytd to hang around for the count down and asking about my whereabouts .. i always thought friends are like a routine and changes once u reach another environment and u will forget them gradually... but i guess not for these bmtc friends ..

gotta thanks ervine and marcus for hearing me out ... comforts me pretty much talking to u guys ... hope to hang out with u guys again soon enough :)

made myself look bad for thinking u guys actually forgotten about me right away once u guys enter sispec ...

For now .. i guess i just have to concentrate on my current vocation and work hard for navy and air force posts ... as for scorpion coy section 1 platoon mates ... may i wish all my buddies all the best in becoming their future 3rd sergeants :)

2009-12-10T22:07:00.002+08:00

The beginning

Pop-ed on tuesday ... the feeling was really great especially the part we did the mini- jockey cap drill ... 1 check 1 .. and we were all prepared to throw our caps off ...

its like a promotion to private once we did that .. fucking off from loathsome pple is a bliss ... but cant guarantee there wont be such pple in new units ..

at the same time separating with buddies who were together for every lessons during the times when there are pple who chao keng with slightest fever *fuck up buddy* :)

it was also that period for pple who stayed over endured the boring rehearsals together, complain together, having jokes to lighten up the mood, criticizing although we know we still have to rehearse, cleaning up the bunk till tip-top condition with like half of the section mates when most went home because of fever and mild fever ....

..... all that made the bonds even stronger ... kudos guys ... we could say we fully pop-ed together

i bid those fuck up pple goodbyes without handshakes during pop , or i am half-hearted while doing so .. hope u can feel it ... i almost wanted to ignore u when u offer a handshake to me ........

and i wish u best of luck in ur new vocation .. u gotta need it ... for someone with great patience and endurance like me to be able to piss off by u ... u are really smth ... one in the world ... stay within ur own world ... dun burden other pple :) i will wish for not having to see ur fuck face ever again :) ... u can be in the care of ur parents ... but even till ur old ? and making ur then weak old parents to still take care of u ? good luck ..

to my section mate buddies (u know who u are) ... i wish u guys all the best ... getting the vocations u guys strife so hard for ..

till then .. its time to relax

2009-11-27T10:08:00.002+08:00

Bondings

whats left now is only soc games day and the 24km march ... after soc should be more relaxing than before ...

anyway at this stage ... quite thankful i get to get into my own section where everyone are just like buddies with the exception of some rotten shit of course ... 2 to be specific ... and i was right .. i am not the only feeling the same way ...infact everyone is aware ...

the only thing preventing from punching ur fuck face is for my weekends and going to db and not giving trouble for my parents ... plz remember that fuck face ... putting through u for 7 weeks is a fucking pain in the ass ...

on the other hand .. joking around and having fun chess games with my section mates are really enjoyable ... things like that just makes time pass faster ... and makes me feel proud to be with my own section ...

not sure whether my 2.4km is around 9 minutes 40 or 50 + ... kind of curious since the run for the final ippt was more relaxing ... than the previous ... still need to work on my pull ups tho .. 2 more for gold but i only know i have silver for sure for final ippt ...

SOC gonna be very tough ... didint know swing trainer is that tough until i hang and realize how heavy i am ... gonna work hard and not coming back for re-soc .. argh ... FIGHTING!!

2009-11-20T19:17:00.002+08:00

pending pop , soc , sit test

Around 3 more weeks and i will pop ... have to admit it was fun especially with good friends around ... and new friendships that are forged with simple reasons ...

people i hated right at the start eventually became my better friends as compared to my own buddies and pple i thought i could get along well with .. but well there are always bad apples among the good ones ...

quite okay with my section at least except 3 or 4 guys ... and seriously .. having a retarded buddy is pain in the ass

.... really dunno how anyone could think that they are AFRAID of going OCS because he ASSUME he will do TOO well for his upcoming sit test .... saying things like that right before the test ... not sure how he get the confidence from ... especially for having a retarded face and body language in the first place

as if ocs is even easy to get in in the first place ... aside from that ... he THINKS he have leadership qualities just because our di appointed him a few times to become IC for firing drills ... wow ... if thats the case everyone have leadership qualities as well ? since everyone have the chance to do it as well ? .. sigh ..

thankfully i am not the only one who think he is a retard .... few guys humor me by making fun of him ... jokes that could make my day easily

IPPT Sibei jialat
SOC lagi worst !

this lyrics part of purple light song ... i thought it wouldnt be this bad but after todays soc ... i really cant agree more ... the worst would be the run right after all the 11 obstacles ... 200 m and i was shag like a dog ... but i gonna thank the guy to help me pace the run ....

left with 3 more items until a good 1 week + break .. cant wait for it ... fighting !!!

2009-10-31T19:14:00.004+08:00

1/3 mark

finally one month ended ... this week did live grenade... more soc and road march .. and i must say soc is a pain ... difficult to imagine doing soc with lbv helmet rifle for now ...

my mom's friend son lost 6 kg during this one month ... and i didnt lose any weight .. infact i gained weight ... dun really know how to explain this other than gaining back the weight as soon as i lose some ...was sure i sweat like a dog during pt and st ... anyway the more impt thing is i got more strength power in the process ...

but losing some weight will really make arms to support my body easily ... might need to do smth about it like not taking the sweet drinks anymore ...

as usual we have our favorite friday .... but this time round we got the chance to watch s-league at jalan besar .... it was boring most of the time ... but i have to admit there were times i was watching hoping for a goal ... and everyone was just excited during the last few minutes for our official book out time ...

was really lucky to get a ride on my dad's car this time round .... else it will be hell of a long trip to go home ... sigh tml booking back in and this emo feeling is already kicking in again ... but well to think that everyone have to go through this makes me feel more at ease at least ....

monday will be live firing .. thusday or friday will be the mock ippt again ... pretty sure this time round it will be a minimum 6 pull ups ... and it dropped from 9 to 5 ...now 6 ... one of the reason is i have more weight to pull now ... more or less should be the meals i am taking ...

More importantly ... those who fail is almost a guarantee rt till sat .. something i will make sure it will never happen to me at least ... Fighting for book out time that is

2009-10-25T14:38:00.002+08:00

army life starts

1st few weeks were the worst when my body is not used to constant push ups and exercise ... cant even rest when my whole body is still aching ...

lucky for oct intake and we have deevapali .... one week confinement and booking out the next week ... really lucky ... cant imagine myself surviving 2 weeks of confinement ...

also gonna mention how lucky for me to get into a good coy ... cant ask for more ... good welfare and stuff ... warrant officers are great ... nth to complain about ....

More stuff are about to come ... live grenade tml ... soc ... road march ..
field camp ... "they say what , just do what" thats what one of the regulars in my bunk told us ...

have been following instructions so far and not gotten into any shit yet ... hope it stays that way ... having weekends burn off is really a pain and currently have a good 3-4 hrs before booking in ... and the boredom is already starting to kick in ....

the only thing i remind myself is most people have already been through what i am going through now , done it , survive it ... serve and fuck off ... still very early for me to say this but i am having this mindset at the earliest stage ... .

strangely though ... wished i could get picked up for ocs or sispec ... not because i am enthusiastic .... just that i want to make use of my 2 years in there ....

got to start pushing myself more and to take all the training like a real man ...

one of my bunk mates happen to play warcraft standard as well ... and when talking about the achievements i made until now ... i know myself that the gaming competitively will still run in my blood ...

nth beats the satisfaction of being top 3 in any competition and getting photographed for ur achievement and the route to go through to reach that achievement .... my semi-pro gaming (part time gamer) will probably continue in sc2 ... not sure how well .. but will just try

Coninute fighting !! all recruits !!

2009-10-06T21:27:00.002+08:00

Pre-enlistment day ....

tml will finally be the day i enlist to the army .... well the few weeks prior to this day actually went through quite slow and good... and there is lots of mixed feelings within me ...

i feel quite emo right now .... but at the same time anticipating of what's ahead of me ...i am sure i will be missing my comfortable home and my family .. sigh ...

my mom even asked me whether i wanted her to accompany me during the enlisting but i said it wasnt necessary ... i didnt tell her why though ... but the truth is i will feel sad and perhaps get teary eyed when i have to bid her goodbye ..

hair gone is one thing ... gonna miss my games and the holiday life i had ... a good thing i didnt buy the ps3 yet since i could get the slim instead ....... but definitely going to buy it once blazblue cs is out ...

driving license .... uni apps ... so much more .. not sure if i should style my hair one last time tml .... since it will be gone anyway lol ... something i am surely going to miss ... styling my hair before poly days ... ended up late ... such a regular routine for me ...

will be around 2 weeks until i blog again

2009-09-08T00:17:00.004+08:00

a month's time

In another month's time .. its time to get into the army ... suppose to go in by this month actually ... but got the luxury to go in the next month thanks to passing napha at sch ... just a slight delay though ....

i dun really mind going to ns ... and thats because i want my life to continue ... i want to go in ... get out ... continue with life ... my life currently is aimless .. everyday just pass by just like that ... and i missed school life ...

well ... also taking up driving lessons ... its really a very funny timing since this should be the time to just slack and rest ... but yea ... took btt late ... and have to waste more months before that ... kind of regret why i didnt take it while i was still studying in poly ... now have to book a slot when i am in army ...

i really have no idea how the lesson fees can be so expensive ... aside from that .. during my 2nd and 3rd lesson ... the instructor was on his phone most of the time ... and that was the time i first started to drive on the road .... but yea .. its supposed to be more expensive if i take it in school .... i pay for what i get ? and its still not cheap despite that ...

but i told myself i am there to learn ... not to make friends with that old fart ... have to figure out things myself ... alot of things he didnt even bothered to guide properly and expect me to know how to do it ... simple things such as signaling ... changed down etc ... i learned all these if my
5th lesson ... and it only takes me on time to digest all that ... really didnt know why he didnt bothered to guide me earlier

tml is lesson ,,, the day after is final theory and another day after would be another lesson ... dun really know when i will finish learning ... sigh ...

these few days ... had a lot of weird dreams ... mostly regarding school life .. and a girl i used to like ... i really hate these dreams because of how realistic it is ... it makes me want to turn the time to the past ... but thats not going to happen ...

if i would just take the extra courage ... i wonder how things could turn out ... used to have a perfect chance to ask during an outing when i am just alone with her ... yea chicken out .. but well .. asking doesnt mean succeed anyway ...

life is just like that sometimes ...

2009-06-14T23:59:00.004+08:00

Memorial Day

Attended my cousin's wedding dinner today ... and this is my first time to witness the whole traditional event and seeing my family members getting involved as well

Anyway today started off when i was awoken around 5+ ... realize those photographers are already at my house ... i actually slept extremely badly last night but well ... have a small little task to do ....

so actually wash up around 6 + and wore formal and get ready for the groom to arrive downstairs ... and once i heard the car horn ... i went downstairs with the photographers with oranges with the word "fu" happiness

and received ang bao from the groom ... and thats all .. i am done lol ... then i just "tailed" at their backs to see whats going on ... and like traditional marriage u see in dramas ... they wont let the groom get into the house easily and have to go through those challenges to get through ....

things like eating those "abnormal food" ... and giving those huge ang bao (the groom gave the currency in rupias lol) forgot the sum .. but its defintely beyond rich people as well

anyway ... around 1 pm they came back to "bai nian" and give ang baos and serve tea to my parents and her parents ... isnt all these u see in drama as well ?

then finally went for the wedding dinner around 8 + ... the most memorial part i felt was the pictures of my family with my cousins in the past ...

one of it includes me sitting on my cousin(the one getting married today) lap when i was a baby with my bro and her sisters .. of course .. totally dun have any recap but the pictures really bring back memories of my time when i stayed in woodlands 2nd floor and 1st floor was my cousins which i hanged out with last time

and there was a malay neighbour on the 1st floor that we always buy curry puffs from ... and a very kind neighbour next door of my old house who cooked maggie mee or make fruit juice for my brother and I whenever my parents were out ...

now of course dun have any of this because people grow up and lead different lives ... and i myself dun wish to live in the past ... but its still good to recap good times we have in the past

also went up on stage for the "yum seng" tradional yelling thingy ... but well at least for my side we didnt ... there were already people with mikes to do the yelling .... waited three times and just drank the champange and went down already ...

there's also a funny part where the groom is actually blinded by white cloth and were made to choose his wife out of 4 ... and he kept choosing my cousin's sister ... pretty funny .. but not sure if this is staged or prepared before hand

Lastly, the groom speech and the night was almost over .... well very tiring day today ... but definitely memorialable

2009-05-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

repairing

the most powerful ability within a human body is its ability to repair itself if there is damage or infection ... kind of convinced when i changed my life style ...

Being a semi-coffee addict for around 2 years at least .. in around 3 months time i didnt had any coffee at all ... very hard to adapt at first because i feel tired all the time ... and coffee is like a temporary relief for this tiredness of mine

coffee ... spicy food ... sourish food .. have to avoid it all .. and i have plans to actually avoid it all together for a very long time ... but the temptation is always there ... especially for morning coffee ... well .. its going well so far... but sometime i feel sourish taste in my tongue and sometime after dinner around 2-3 hours need to have some biscuits ... think should be the acid acting on my stomach in irregular times ...

kind of dreading my life style in the past but that wont change anything now ... anyway .. few weeks back was very scary ... both physical and mental

although i was tired i cant sleep ... and when i sleep i can even feel the acid in my stomach reacting ... and i havent mention the stiffness in my stomach ... so i slept with my stomach feeling extremely bloated and full ... how on earth to sleep that way ? indeed i have to wake up every 2 - 3 hours ...

thats not it ... havent mention i cant even eat ... the sense of hungriness was kind of gone ... sure i can eat ... but imagine when u eat halfway and the food seems to reject itself ? so i have to eat and drink water at the same time to *push* down the food ... if not it seems as the food never able to get down without any liquid

besides all these .. i was thinking too much of my own condition i lost interst in everything .... playing games .. watching tv ... listening to music ... my attention was completely focused on my stomach and negative thoughts ... my energy was used to think the possible outcome of this nonsense instead of finding ways to solve it ...

anyway ... i only got better by sleeping more and eating more and exercising more ... sounds strange to exercise in such condition ? but it actually helps ... but when i started to do my regular jogging ... sometimes half a round i have to stop because of stich pain in my stomach ... even its that little .. its better than not doing anything at all ...

another challenge was actually to do running itself ... for some reasons ... my legs was extremely heavy ... and it seems to have lots of fats especially around the thighs ... its like running with weights ... but on ur thighs instead on ur lower leg portion ... beside running was difficult .. it got so bad that i cant even run straight ... it feels like i lost my balance ... its like run straight for a few seconds and u have to jerk to ur left or right ... and u feel like ur body is out of sync

besides all these ... days were passed with insufficent sleep ... imagine that u have to run but u feel like sleeping ... or after eating u already feel like to sleep .. but u know u cant .... its really near "shen bu ru si" which means its better to die off than staying alive and suffering ...

but well, i manage to use mental strength to do the things i want ... started out slowly ... and eventually got better ... slept for 3 hrs den 4 hrs den 5hrs .... den days started to get better ... seems like sleep is very important to repair ur body

as for now, i am still approaching the full recovery state by eating more nutritious food + sleep + exercising ... but obviously still not as good as the past ... my best record was running 4 rounds ... now is 2 rounds and a half ... but i am sure its just a matter of time to regain my old body back ...

thankfully, my enlistment date is still quite far ... there is ton of time to recover ... imagine going around july ... i am sure i will suffer like shit with my condition now ... legs muscles is getting back ... and i am gaining weight back which is a good thing

Being gone through this ordeal ... i suddenly feel my holidays very enjoyable and now going back to my normal life ... more basketballing, arcading, gaming ... missed out lots of things like friends birthdays ... basketball sessions ... but well cant really be helped

korean style of supporting had always been my favourite ... u can sometime witness it on korean dramas which is fighting ... which is equivalent to chinese "jia you" i also learned this in war3 since war3 have loads of korean players and some of them being my friends and they actually use that to support me when i play

Fighting!

2009-04-17T12:25:00.002+08:00

Thinking straight, positive

currently breaking the barrier inside of me , slowly recovering but still takes time ... still tired but i am sure its better than ytd and few days back or weeks back ...

avoiding food that cause gases in stomach .... watching what i eat and exercising .... life style ...

hope to get well soon

2009-04-15T09:52:00.002+08:00

Control fate ... dun let fate control you ...

been pretty dramatic for me lately ... its like a 360 change for me life ...
yes ... health problems i am currently facing or is it ?

being paranoid in the slightest things ... oblivious of what my fate would be ... worrying my parents ... doctors told me i am alrite ... but i felt otherwise .. it brings doubts and uncertainties in my life ...

felt life is so precious all of a sudden ... life style in the past might get the stomach problems i am facing now ...

mentally ... its very stressful for me ... i feel my appetite have decreased so much ... keep having thoughts of myself having problems when doctors assured me ....

sleeping became a phobia ... i always feel uncomfortable when i lie down .... i have lost a lot of weight ... 2-3 kg to be exact ....

but well .. life is always full of uncertainties ... another day of life actually means a bonus ... time at home was used to worry of my life at the current state instead of playing warcraft 3 ... i always feel uncomfortable at night after eating ...

it was worse when i dun have the appetite to eat ... i have loads of long talks ... waking my parents in the middle of the night ... they thought i was crazy and paranoid worrying over trivial matters ... but i dun blame them ... perhaps i might be ... ..

my parents and doctors dun want me to walk the route to looking forward to death ... i am currently trying very hard to fight of this mental stress i am facing ... the sleepless nights i have been having ... something must be done ... no one can help but myself ...

i only came to my senses recently ... instead of worrying all these ... life shud carry on as per normal .... i got tired of worrying ...

but that doesnt mean i am going to give up .. i shud be brave and get self-esteem back like what i had in the past ....

FIGHTING !!!!!!!

2009-03-13T22:49:00.002+08:00

m'sia trip

today went m'sia with family ... kinda takes up the whole day around 9.30 den back around 7 + and its damn tiring ... but cant be compared to my father who drove the whole day ...

or my mom storing the seafoods .... but well i did helped to carry seafood and stuff for my aunt to her house who went along ... and even lent us some movies ... damn why the genre "horror and ghost" which i am most afraid of .... she asked whats my favorite genre of movies

i told her comedic, funny ... but she says "da nan ren pa she mou!" means a grown up man .. scared of these stuff ? well ... each individual have his/her own preference i guess .. i like comedic since it makes me laugh and it really improves my mood .... like most jacky wu variety show does ...

anyway ... went home and i knew i still have another load of seafood to carry up ... and its nearly twice of my aunts portion which is damn heavy ... struggled through all the way to the lift ... before i knew it ... water is leaking into my pants and legs ....

its not water exactly ... its water + seafood stench/liquid or whatever u call it ... and when i urgently pressed for the lift button ... i saw 6 and another 12 ... my mind was !@#!@# hurry the f**k to floor 1 .. and i was lucky there wasnt anyone to share the lift .... as they will have to witness my inconsideration of dirtying the lift ... but seriously i cant do a shit about it when the styroform box is already broken at the side ... and u cant expect me to carry the load through stairs for 8 floors

these few days i really like the accompany of my family ... especially during week days when u are all alone in a home ... and ur family members starts returning ... making a lonely home alive ... i know some of my old sch friends who doesnt have a complete family ... but they have ways to cope it ... and i am fortunate to have one

been spenting more time watching tv with my parents ... talking .. having conversations more than before ... when i was in fyp or iap period ... dun even have much oppotunity to watch tv at all ... really kind of enjoying watching televesion and doing some reading at the same time and talking about the celebrities in the tv ....

but well ... eventhough work can be important .. i am sure it doesnt beat the importance of a family

2009-03-04T23:36:00.002+08:00

Things to do

Finding ways to take up time ... currently doing the following ... and the weather over the west is getting better ... there was rain on monday ... but today is really pretty good weather .. and jogging resumes for me

except times where it looks like its about to rain and sometimes not

currently :
- Reading (newspapers, comic books)
- Games (nothing new but doing it less)
- Tv (sometimes and sometimes not)
- Jogging (everyday provided the weather is good)
- Push ups (at home)
- sit ups and pull ups (at public fitness corner)

Plan to:
- swimming
- basketballing
- basic theory
- reading or borrow books from lot1's library

Well quite a boring schedule but .. thats life for a very long time ... more of sports and gaming fanatic ... less of going out to shopping centres etc ...

meeting up friends for me are normally for gaming tournaments or events and mostly sports oriented ...

used to have buddies to hang out normally at arcades, to eat, hang out then always proceed to friends house ... to play ..watch movies .. joke around ... to whatever .. but thats like the holidays during sec 2 ...

then it gets lesser and lesser ... adapting to changes that is ...

2009-03-02T16:59:00.002+08:00

Weather

Not sure how weather affect most people ... but for me .. i prefer warmth and sunny weather .... rainy days are days where i can self-reflect ... and my mood will be very calm ..

however, with that being said ... for past week ... at most areas i believe have been raining consistently ... almost every afternoon it looks like it gonna rain ...

it actually make me feel very down .. like very bored mood ... i only appreciate rainy days if its once in a while ... this weather currently is definitely not good .... sunny for a moment and next will be heavy rain...

at least if i could do some jogging outside ... i can see people walking their dogs .... students in uniform playing basketball .... and it brings back my memories when i was secondary sch ... i always play basketball with friends in uniform ... always ended up buttons going off ... torn pants ....broken spectacles ...

well anyway ... its now the 2nd week since fyp ended ... have to say my everyday life is pretty boring ... tv + war3 + comic books ... except last friday where i took napha test ... met e2 classmates ....

results: 1st time

Score Grade Points

Sit Ups: 34 D 2
Standing Broad Jump: 247 B 4
Sit & Reach: 47 B 4
Pull Up: 9 B 4
Shuttle Run: 9.7 A 5
2.4km: 10.04 A 5

results: 3rd time

Score Grade Points

Sit Ups: 33 D 2
Standing Broad Jump: 225 C 3
Sit & Reach: 42 C 3
Pull Up: 9 B 4
Shuttle Run: 9.7 A 5
2.4km: 11.42 D 2

i didnt bothered posting my 2nd attempt why ? the 2.4km is absolutely bs ... up till today i still have no idea whats going on ... was it extra round ? was it really got 12.55 ? well i seriously have no idea ... up till today it kind of pisses me off lol

for my 3rd re-test ... i have to repeat alot of things because of faults .... i re-took shuttle run ... 10.8 at 1st attempt ? i realize its not speed thats important .. the only important part is turning and picking up the block which i neglected in my first try .... and it waste alot of my energy ... most just did it once ... i did twice ...

sit ups was still the same ... push myself till 30 den rest .... around 10 seconds left then chiong for a 2 points ... wanted for 3 points but i am one sit up short ...

pull up at least was consistent through out my 3 tests ... 9 in the 1st and 3rd ... the 2nd i think was 8 ...

lastly 2.4 ... my third attempt was more casual than my 2nd test ... throughout 6 rounds .. i use minimal but constant speed ... and i got 2 points pretty easily ... i didnt even sprint at the last round ... which i did for my 2nd test ... strange ? i dunno ... cant really be explained ... i only remember leading all the way for my 2nd test .. and pple behind me got a better timing than i did ...

i didnt even see anyone over take me at all ... but one friend of mine got 12.30 when i didnt even see him over take me ...

quite obvious everything except pull ups deproved thanks to fyp ...

Anyway ... now is march ... around a month's and weeks times before graduation ... defintely going to miss study semesters ... had the most fun ... whether is it night classes during year 2 .... sports in school ... but well good things comes to an end and have to move on ...

and hoping this weather currently will go away as soon as possible ...

2009-02-19T19:31:00.002+08:00

Pre-enlistees

Kind of feel scared ... times really flies ... need to appreciate youth while we can ...

Had basketball session with the same old friends from fajar secondary recently ... too bad there is just 4 of us ... used to be a team of 12-13 ... but well these 3 are the people i am closer with ..

Was talking about the times we had "outside team" ... having a good time trying to recall each number we gotten which really bring back memories especially during sec 2 - 4 where our team is still active ...

Did medical check up on monday ... was damn long and boring ... blood test was not as scary as i imagined ... and from how my friend described it ... what bloated veins ... whatever crap ... it wasnt half that scary ...

The initial jab was a slight pain and its over already .... And i have most trouble with photo taking .... had a very hard time trying to get my hair as described "comb your hair like mine" who doesnt have fringe ..... Hair just kept cover back my forehead each time i try to comb the "du shen" style and back of my hair was visible

Used so much water on my hair in the end that it looks i just finished bathing ... didnt know how people with hair longer than mine passed through ...

Sigh ... all the pre-enlistees work ... can forsee whats going to happen in a few months time ...

Few days back got a call from my supervisor .... only realized when i saw my phone to have a miss call ... and i couldnt reach him back for around 2-3 hours ...

The very first thing that came to my mind was worrying if there is any problem with my reports or project ... Wondering if he had any problem starting up the projects etc etc etc ... made me anxious ... but when i finally got to reach him around 2-3 hours later ...

"Oh weiming ar ... nothing important .. just asking about the taiwan trip ........." Phew ... really very reliefed ... made me no mood for that period of time ... but thankfully now there is nothing to worry ...

tml will have a napha test again .... hope i dun screw up like i did during the second time ... just 2.4 and sit ups ... although till now i still dunno whats exactly the reason for failing 2.4 which is supposedly my best out of the 6 stations

used to run around 4-5 times per week back in year 3 study semester ...mostly back then when tuesday is afternoon class, friday evening, saturday and sunday ...

difference of 2.55 minutes comparing the 1st time and the 2nd time is a huge difference ... i thought the worst i could get is around 11 minutes plus ... but still i could feel the difference as after the run i was not as tired compared to the 1st test which could mean i didnt try as hard

Time:5.30 p.m.
Venue:Sports area (dunno exact name)

2009-02-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

Ordeal thats over

Finally everything comes to an end. The final presentation is actually less stressful than the open presentation, question are directed more towards my application's scope which is a good thing ... and lucky the changes i made were according to what my assessor wanted during week 6 ...

wasnt as bad as i imagine except that i was nervous at the very start .... one of the assessor only appeared twice throughout the entire 12 weeks ... once around week 8 asking what projects we are doing and in the final presentation... quite a nice guy actually

today ... i didnt even completed most of the AES report ... was rushing like shit ... yesterday did from around 9 to 12 ... and today i woke up early in the moring around 5+ and did all the way till 11 + .... actually completed around 7 web pages in total .....

The worst thing is it dun even hold any percentage or points to our final grade ... but thats no the end ...i even need to spent time going through my 80+ pages report ...

every thing reports or whatever shit is then burned to my disc by around 1 pm and i went off ... gave a call to my supervisor intended to give my work and go off ...

Little did i realize was that i forgot to do one web page that i missed out or thought its optional ... went back to my lab to do ... and was only left with around 1 or 2 hours ... but html isnt really very hard to do ... just apply here and there and its set already

Need to thanks my dt for giving chocalates as well ... quite a nice dt .. although at the start mention rules and regulations here and there ... but didnt really restrict anything ...

Even let us choose what new year goodies we want like bak kwa and oranges ... didnt really see that in all the dt labs ...

sigh but will need around a weeks time to finally clear up everything ... medical screening, applying uni and napha test ...

seems to me that the path where everyone is about to split up will began quite soon .... after graduation to be exact ... but well its been a cycle since primary school to secondary and poly is no exception ...

but what i am more concern is ... will i able to see u again ? .......

2009-02-11T22:29:00.002+08:00

Shooter's Game

This isnt really a game ... what do i mean by Shooter's Game ? For 2 consectuive days ... what i have seen was for open presentation where lectures come to ur com and u do a demonstration of ur project ... out of 7 lecturers 3 are decent and the 4 shoot my project till the point where it seems my project is a worthless piece of junk

So how was the feeling of that ? Extreme miserable .... and its real ... it demoralize me so much .. i felt like gaving up everything all at once ....After the 2 days of open presentation including today which was the 2nd day ... the door towards uni seems to be shut straight away for me ... (for NTU or NUS)

Hiding away tears thats about to overflow after mr teo consoled me ... Although it didnt guarantee me a fail since the open presentation holds a small percentage to my overall .... I felt uber disappointed ...

Crybaby like myself .... gets teary eyes very easily and can get affected easily by the smallest and most trivial matter ... but that does not stop lecturers from holding back their harsh remarks .... but then again its not just me .... i dun get how lecturers can shoot so much when students already did advanced projects like what abel's project seems to be ...

The best remark i gotten was from valarie chung ... who commented my project as having basic functions and overall working program ... really need to thanks her ... She was the only who didnt shoot my project and even gave enhanced ideas for my project ....

thats a total of 7 lecturer comments ... its over now and tml is left with the one thats the most important ... so after the 2 days of open presentation .... whats the current level of my confidence level now ? 0%

today during lunch with eugene ... my sorrow was difficult to be hidden ... normally i would hide sadness or sorrow till the point u cant even tell it ... and i can even joke along with friends while hiding all that ... just not today ... its just too much

My tone is obvious ... my mood was obvious .... my body language was obvious ... but i still need to thank him for consoloditating ... when i told him the gate/door towards uni is closed for me ... he suggest smu ... and thats my current plan already ...

All in all ... i cant give up just yet ... even i know it wont be good ... i still need to try .... besides thats the only thing i can do ...

2009-02-06T21:42:00.012+08:00

Last.Week

This week is really one of the worst in my entire poly life .... go to school for 5 consecutive is minimum of 6 - 8 hours of project work ... and today almost set a record ... from the time i entered class ... sign attendance at block P come back to class

from then on i can count the number of times i look outside of class, and no.times i went out of class ... its twice ... once for break once for toilet ... And once i look out of the class because eugene waited for me to go break ... and once when my friend asked me whether i printed out my project poster

During morning have to redesign my cover page .... with grid lines ... its actually pretty fun .. since it was so long since i last used photoshop ... and i have been using asp.net for near 3 months ... which is so sickening

After break i actually took 4 hours to take screen shots of my entire project since 1 pm onwards ... its really no kidding ... renaming the files and print screening ... in total was around 10 mb of jpeg files ... and i actually already did it very fast with APM(Action Per Minute) from war3 lol..

Average Singaporean have around 180-190 apm and i have around 240 ... sigh been so long since the last competition ... I missing the times i spam so fast especially during deciding battles or large 80 food vs 80 food battles

Anyway was near 5.20 when i finally completely finished the preparations for reports and project ... the 7-8 minutes was spent on naruto manga before i head off home ...

Normally everyone will be ready and standby to take attendance immediately with the web cam there exactly on 5.30/6pm or some even start sitting at the computer to get ready to take the screen shot 3-4 minutes prior to the release time then after the first person will be immediately followed by one after another to take attendance

but today was abit different ... 5.30 but everyone is still on their seat ... doing the obvious ... which was doing their project or reports.... Well the only difference comparing them to me was i never take tea breaks at all for the entire 12 weeks ... except a few exceptions of 3 to 4 times when i am too hungry ...

Anyway although everyday have around 7 to 8 hrs of sleep ... i was still mentally tired .... an i realize this was especially so right after day i did a whole day of just programming only and i have been doing that for at least 3 days straight ... mentally tired but still forced my way through to school and did work ....

monday was the the most extreme because prior to that day i only slept for around 3-4 hrs .... and i always dun sleep well on sunday ...but i was still way more efficient and did lots of work compared to past few weeks ...

1 last week to go ... and we finally can get the rest we deserved .... we already deserved a break right after exam ...

This few days .. i have been thinking of other things more than usual ... i really just hope these are just my assumption and imagination ... hope all these things i have been thinking is false ... so that i dun have to think about it any further

2009-01-08T22:38:00.019+08:00

Open House event day1

Rare for me to blog and update again so quickly but just that today so many things happen that i think its worth to update ....

morning was actually my mid term access of my project ... the day before .. i spent around close to 8-9 hours to work on my project ... and no kidding .. 1-6 in school .. back home had dinner and settled down around 8 and did 2 hours + more ...

needless to say when i reach home .. i was already mentally dead but i actually forced/pushed myself to continue working although i am already very tired ... implementing new ideas such as only logged in users are able to view the things they entered ...

but today's so called "informal" presentation was the first time i felt so pissed off with the accessor ... he gives the shit and cocky face while accessing ... and using words like "why the heck" ... and i dun understand why he cant say "please move the computer screen so that i can see" instead of saying things like "how u expect me to see anything like this?" ...

so damn bloody arrogant ... he spoiled my appetite for lunch ... i actually planned to skipped it ... but still manage to eat a little and didnt finish mostly ... but then again ... i asked a few others .. and they mentioned similar comments or atittude towards their projects as well ... so thankfully he wasnt picking on me ... just that he got this shit attitude

anyway after lunch was about time to report for the open house duty .. but my mood was still horrible and in addition i was extremely fatigued "mental stress from programming" even though i have a lot of sleep ...

the first hour or so i was actually just loitering around .. hoping i dun get any duty .. but really loitering around doesnt mean time is going to pass fast ... so we just went back and waited in the waiting room ... waiting for instructions ... but by then most mit students already went for their duties ...

leaving around 5 mit students ... then we are made to wait near the auditorium ... waiting for schools to arrive in buses so that we can help out to lead ...

but just then one of the incharge who is a student as well .. asked one of us to lead a lady around ... and i was randomly picked ... initially opt for two person ... but then again just 1 for 1 ... and i actually voluntered lol ... and i didnt regret a single bit ... leading one person is better than leading 20 ? ...

anyway went to block q level 5 which was school of life sciences .. when we just entered .. one of the life science lecturer actually asked us whether we wanted to take a look for the chemistry experiement or smth ... which we obliged to ...

but seeing how the lecturer supported the students in explaining was the part i think was really nice ... and what i thought was there wasnt much students in that restricted small room in the first place(total of just 6 including me) or most dun even know there was exibition in that room ... it was the lecturer who supported his students by waiting outside the room and asking people to watch them ...what a nice lecturer they have ..i dun see other exhibition rooms which are tagged by lecturers all day ...

after that we went to food science which was just directly opposite block q at level 6 ... this was the place that actually made my day ... seeing a really cute girl of my type actually made me forget all the shit that happen during the day ... actually while touring with the lady i actually minimized a little of the bad things that happen in the morning while talking to her about other things ...

during the exibition of food science ... the cute girl actually stand just right beside me while her friends was sitting at the table edge... i also find it quite funny when i nodded my head to show that i understand the explanation .. she nodded hers as well for dunno what reason lol ... but the only thing i learned was that she's in year 2 when the lady asked them about it ...

dun even know her name ...but i definitely wished i can meet her up again .... and asking for her hp no or msn at least ... but the strange thing is i cant remember her face exactly ... but i only know she is the type of girl that i really like ... and its been around 2 years since i last have an urge and feeling,wanting to know a girl in person ...

just being friends is already good enough ... i only know i will regret if i dun approach her and ask ... even on the way back home in mrt ... i will try to recall her face ... but just cant and actually slept naturally on mrt train ... i have been getting more and more tired ... i know the reason behidn it ... but then again ... this will at most last for another 1 month or so ...

and 1 more month of time to prevent any regrets ..tml can be the last time i meet her since its still open house period ... but i wished for an random encounter ... since i have no reason to go to exhibition room ...

2009-01-06T22:23:00.005+08:00

Boring week 7

this week actually includes open house ... which is damn boring ... and we are actually forced to help out on one of these days ...

this thusday is the mid-term presentation ... but yea .. no ppt needed ... just explain a few stuff ... a rather informal presentation ... sounds good to me ... as compared to pple who needs to wear formal .. do ppt slides ...

more importantly .. i have done most of the basic requirements ... thus, dun really feel stressed at the moment ... but i am sure i will in a few weeks time ... can feel its going to start already ...

there were an addition of a few more students to the current class ... but i dun feel any much difference ... everyday is music on and i do my work whole day long and trying not to get distracted each time someone pass by ... kind of sick of it already ...would be good if i can face somewhere else ... so that i dun have to notice anyone walking pass ... each time i have to "act" that i didnt see anything which is against a human natural reaction at least for me ...

anyway today got worst when there are different bunch of china pple or whether is it students who came in the class and hear john fung explain stuff ... it was so loud that its so distracting... even not doing much i felt pretty annoyed ...

wondering if this is really the ideal place for fyp students to do projects ... back in block L at least people in the class can joke around ... play basketball ... talk crap ... and nobody give a damn for what u are doing ... at the same time doing work at the right time

but in block s there are DTs and people actually expect us to do work for 8-9 straight hours ? no sleeping ? no resting? there was once i did programming the whole moring and slept for nearly an hour in block L and nobody give a damn ...

but at least DT in my class is decent ... saying all the required rules but they actually dun really restrict too much stuff ... even stating our official break time .. but dun really say anything when we go earlier or come back later ...

anyway ... so far quite happy with my work ... mainly because these are the stuff i gave up doing back in year 2 .... if anyone remember .. its the asp project in year 2 ... 75% admin and 25 % user .... 25% user was the part i completely gave up ... so at most my project got a 75% but right now ... i can do most of stuff ... but it definitely wasnt easy right at the start ...

but after understanding .. its really pretty easy if u know what u are doing ... like java .. as long there's some logic .. then just make tweaks here and there ... today i actually start thinking of some work from afternoon onwards (slacking the whole moring) and reach home(cant concentrate in sch for some reason) and did for around 10 minutes and i actually got the output i wanted...

that feeling is really invaluable .. great sense of statisfaction ... back around week 4 -5 i almost wanted to gave up and even have the thought to wait till watson is back to help me out (i ended soloing) but managed to pull through ... anyway i always prefered to do alone ... no restriction and i dun have to comprimise anyone ...

Life is still pretty boring for me ... facing the same software same procedures for nearly 7 weeks now ... Boring as it maybe be ... but it will be over very shortly .... what constitute of this boringness of mine is really confusing ... but i should not think about it when this is the climax of the fyp programme ...

Been an extremely long time i am not able to type darkstrike[x3m] in offline tourney for war3 ... felt very proud each time i type my nick in war3 tourneys .. it kind of recognition i gained over around 4 years plus + the latest clan i joined (was using other nicks in the past)... back then when i was a nobody with this nick and not even in a singapore clan at all ...

few weeks back kane just called me by my war3 nick ... and made my old sch friend felt very weird "why call him that?" ... but thats just because his not in the war3 scene ... but anyway .. i think its kind of the end for this game for singapore at least when last year there was only one tournament which is the wcg ...

Sigh ... what a boring week but tml is already wednesday ... its really fast ... till then ... fighting!

2008-12-25T18:37:00.002+08:00

Short Fyp

Been around 4 months since i last blogged... and it was thanks to attachment that i dun even feel like blogging at all and also when u dun do certain thing for a long time .. the urge just diminish time after time ...

Anyway there were too many things that occurred during these 4 months +and CTG students moving from block L to block S ... which i think is one of the worst things that happened ... no more freedom .. no more "slacking" no more late comings ...

and now i feel that i am being watched , being inspected ...and most of the times i am oblivious about it ... taking attendance with web cam .... after 8.45 .. email will be sent to lecturer saying u are late for sch ? i still felt that was okay though ... But now ... there's always people walking pass .. and they can see exactly what i am doing ...

whether i am slacking .. or whether i am doing work ... and i think it distracts me ... but i will get used to it soon ..

i am supposed to have a project partner ... but he seems to be hospitalized and it seems to be a serious case .... suppose to come back in a month's time ... but till now ... i have been doing all the work alone ... and its pretty tough at the start ...

now is at least better with some basic things settled ... and really need to thanks yan sheng ... his like a god lol ... settled my problems within minutes when i have been doing the thing for like a whole day ? ...

i am just amazed how different other people think of ways to solve a problem ... and there's definitely a different level of hard work among each individual ...

met up with old basketball buddies ... still the same .. nth much to say about lol

The "feeling" was back lately ... and it actually made me have sleepless nights ... at first i thought it was due to stress from projects(probably is ) or perhaps a mix of both ... its difficult to describe this feeling ... but i hope it gets away ...

Before ending this post ... wish everyone a snowless(lol) merry christmas ! ... quite a few buddies wished me already yesterday midnight but i wasnt aware .. and only replied today ... and a few more sent me today ... thanks people ... a christmas without snow is definitely weird ... wish to spent a "true" christmas

till then ... Fighting!

2008-09-18T23:00:00.002+08:00

3rd week 4th day

today finally got my damn pass ... with this pass i dun have to be accompanied to go to canteen ... which is a bliss when i am suppose to go for tea break and the staffs are busy ... now i can go myself ...

these few days ... some staffs begin asking about how i felt about the work i am doing ... some thought that the supposedly IT student like me shud be in it department or certain related stuff ... Some thought it was good exposure for me ...

For me ? i really dunno but the work i am doing really is boring ... During tea break today ... another staff asked me of my plans after i graduate ... its quite general ... NS then uni ... but what i really want to do in future ? question marks everywhere ... really no idea as well ...

But still i wished i can do something related to html/web designing which is my only interest ... Today's tea break i was able to talk alot, open up ... thats because of the another nyp student and staffs i felt was closer to my generation gap ...

Can easily talk about related stuff like girls and etc ... its kind of funny for certain subjects like how many girls are on engineering side ... and those available girls are cmi like how he describe

While talking about results ... he got 4 disctions and 2 As .. make my results look like shit lol ... and normall shud have more distinctions ... but he is also ahead older than us ... and is already married ... but thats no excuse for him to get better grades

another staff told me because his side no girls can concentrate better ... while my side(IT side) have more girls thats why i cant concentrate and play more ...

while that may be true(there is more girls on IT side) but it really didnt affect too much for my results ... Despite for near 2 years having no targets (on girls) ... my grades only improve margin by margin ... thats because of how low my gpa was during year 1 ... but still was better than the past ...

Anyway ... my last hope will have to be fyp and i yet to know whether this shit attachment have any grades which i felt would be an unfair or disadvantage if the thing u do is not ur specialization ... or the supervisor is not serious with the feedback forms ... i hope it isnt the case ...

A new friend at my side is really a good thing ... he kind of console me that it will be over soon .. and now near a month ... he kind of pity me as i am under that staff now ... kind of relieve to hear lol ... but really ... cant afford to go bad terms with her ... i need to survive for at least 2 more months plus ...

2008-09-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

Fatigue

been extremely tired .... especially monday .. when i woke up without having much sleep on sunday ... didnt really felt like going to work ...

Felt like getting mc ... but then .. it would be kind of waste for my already underpaid job ... Anyway kind of used to this kind of job a little ... today even learned to pick up calls .... didnt required to ... but i was guided by some "lao jiao" there ...

I was amazed how nice can some people(customers) be ... their tone .. their attitude ... it just makes my day better ... and of course .. valuable experience i gained ... and i am beginning to recognize some of the faces already ... its also funny how some customer are teaching me how to handle some sort of paper work ... really nice people ...

Of course, there cant be all nice people in the world ... there are some with shit attitude, or just give u a dull face ... but so far just one or two ...

It isnt really very hard ... but its tough ... 8 to 5.45 everyday monday till friday .. i wonder how some staffs can work from 8 to 10 ... I am already dead around 3-4 + ... but the difference is they are working for their job and salary should be at least 4 figures to begin with ... and i am just there to learn .. so i guess each has different motivation

Today saw the NP batch, one of it being a girl during the so call job orientation but without formal(most wore formal on the first day including me) ... i must say she's cute .. i think must be all the aunties i keep seeing everyday .... make me really sian

One of the staff who has a daugther(year 2 ) in nyp even asked me to give my hp no so that her daugther can call me if she had problem in sch work lol ... i forgot to tell her how smart newer generation kids can get ... besides .. how can my guidance be any better than the lecturers in school ?

Besides the np girl ... there's actually a few more .. and some take the same mrt train with me ... at least i know this company is not filled with old generation people t.t ... Really dunno how to communicate with some of them ... during break time i can be very silent ...

Now the calender right infront of my temporary desk(who knows where i will sit when 2 new pending staff is about to come) is my motivation ... i will put a special star symbol right on november 22 ... and each day that passed will be marked with a nice big red cross ... hope it isnt too obvious lol

2008-09-12T19:58:00.002+08:00

Turning point

just when i felt everything is going worse ... it got better today ... today was the least stress i felt through out the 2 weeks ... not much work to do ... not much stress ... just 3-4 customer today ...

i realize i had been too reserved lately .... near the state of anti-social lol .... well anyway ... today onwards will have a lesser staff ... which i felt he helped me the most ...

to so call have a "gathering" my supervisor treated japanese food (last week was the staff about to leave) like last friday ... he saw me didnt talk at all throughout the waiting for our food ... he asked whether i am too stressed or what ... i only say no la ... but infact damn stressed up ...

Anyway what i realized was that ... outside of the work area ... they are just ordinary people ... typical collegues who chat about other things as well ... maybe i shud open up a little more ...

anyway the so called "bitch" was better today ... looked at my work ... asked me whether i have problems .... and attitude was whole lot better than before .... but why she have to wait until near 2 weeks to be like that .... i still feel abit difficult to accept OT work on a saturday ....

i even helped out the guy who misplaced my book previously ... its like nth happen in the past .... its a good thing ... i dun want to create enemies or whatever u call it ...

the cute counter girl at ichibansushi kind of make my day as well ...

if everyday would be like this ... i wont mind for the next 10 weeks .. but it wont sadly ...

as times goes by .. that uneasy feeling i have in the past finally starts to die off ... and i wont have to worry a thing about it anymore ...

its time i shud get serious with this attachment ...

2008-09-11T20:55:00.003+08:00

Different people make a different day

There is really some difference of how each individual do their work ... today morning file up documents for nearly 3 hours .... its a killer ... bored or whatever u call it

noon got chance to meet up with david .. talk a little while then need to report back already ... back to working area ... sigh thats the first reaction when i need to learn new things yet again ...

There is so much pressure in placing the correct cost for an item ... but now .. thanks to my kind and patient staff who patiently teach me step by step ... and even printed steps on how to attain certain information .. one heaven and another is a complete hell ...

within just a few tries ... twice in fact i already know what i am doing ... compared to some impatient bitch that i will be stuck with for the next 2 months + ... i cant learn anything from her ...

Good things come to and end ? that person i can rely on will be quitting tml ... sian ... but i dun think just because he is leaving he is hack-caring what he is doing currently ... i can see the support he receieve from his collegues ... he is well liked and have good sense of responsibility ....

Well .. its an inevitable fact ... although i dun feel a thing because i only spent near 2 weeks working in this company ... i still appreciate his effort ..

Cant wait to celebrate the day i can leave this shit sector ...it actually isnt anyone's fault but mine ... i really not interested in this service group shit... There are some kind customers who knows i am new and guided me along .... one even helped me to fill in particulars for cheques ....

That bitch told me i can do this by myself .... but the patient guy suggested she do it herself since it concerns money ... what i feel is that she want to throw as much stuff to me as possible to burden herself lesser ....

This being my only second week but i feel i am given so little time to learn so many new things ...

That bitch asked yet again before break time ... whether i can come back either saturday or sunday ? ? ? ? ? LMAO ? ? ? ?? saturday still quite understandable because it can be considered a working day ... sunday???? which fucking rule is that ? u created urself or what? stop joking .... i got so much more better things to do ...

I am not even devoted in doing this work in the first place ... let alone coming back and do ... and helping u is a huge pain in the ass .... u urself mentioned i shud make use of sat/sun to have fun to relax and play ... so fast u are taking ur words back ...

but worry not ... not a shit from u will i compromise to take away my weekends ... I already comprmised enough with my kind attitude i am displaying now ... i had been very calm eventhough i am offended by ur gestures/teaching/way of talking most of the time ...

Oh and also ... please dun worry if i will feel guilty for not helping u and letting u have no help at all during the so called weekends because from the way u phrase ur request for my help , it sounded like i am in the wrong if i dun help u ... i wont feel a shit to see u suffer or whatever u call it ... the only time i feel guilty is offending people, disappoint people ... but i guess that all still doesnt applies for u ... my sincere appologies

i normally dun behave this way ... most of my close friends know i dun get pissed off for nth ... and i really hardly get pissed off or in a bad mood ...unless its extreme case like urs

Different culture rite ? I dun blame u ... i try to understand ur culture and ur so called nature of speaking straight to people's face in loud tone ... ur so called impatient nature u failed to mention ... but did u friggin try to understand others ?

Sigh thinking of all these just makes my blood boil ... when i return home ... my mom asked me whether i find work tough ... whether is it boring ... i try not to worry her by saying its manageable when its not ... Still not to the stage of cmi ... but i think soon ... next week without any aid from that patient guy ...

my lo officer told me going this company is "challenging" ... indeed challenging ... in a wrong way ?

2008-09-10T20:25:00.003+08:00

Feeling the stress

At the start of the morning ... as usual .. my dad drove me to work ... been pretty comfortable .. able to wake up at 6.30 .. then just have sometime to relax until 7 .. if i were to go work myself need to wake up around 6.10 ... Quite surprised to see some decent cute girls at the admin area(place to get badge and trade ur IC to go into working area)

Anyway for past 2 days ... almost dun even have time to rest during noon to work off ... My work just keep piling over and over ... and before even finishing half of the work .. i am assigned to do something else ...

I dun remember myself working this hard when i was under another staff ... Thanks to u bitch .. During 8-10 when i was assigned work but didnt understand and have to ask that bitch ... i was told " I have no time , u have to settle urself" in chinese ... I admit i cant understand wtf she talking about in english .. even in chinese.. i cant understand a shit either

Seriously, if i know what i am doing .. do i even need to ask ? dun give me that shit u work for 2 months only and know what to do when u have more working experience than me ... thats plain bullshit .. and i forgot to say ... every single shit she SUPPOSE to teach me .. up till now i dun really learned alot compared to how other staff teached me or i try to play around with the system and learn ...

Infact i realize if i asked anyone except her .. i get my answer faster and learned faster ... and i dun get the impatient feeling i got from that bitch ..

Okay being very pissed at how the way she suppose to teach me and her attitude ... i just sat down and did nth and just read through my notebook until i was told to sent dunno what shit ... when i was back to get my notebook ... i cant find it

i saw some familiar notebook ... at the same position(but wasnt mine actually) .. i took it and some guy create a huge fuss "u take my book for what" ... okay maybe i deserve it .. and was my fault .. i continue to search for my book den i realize it was ontop of the desk ... knn u put other pple's book else where for what fuck? make me cant find it from the original place

My emotions was abit hard to control by then ... i was actually already at my limit ... but then i remember what my LO told me " u will only be there for 3 months , what for create havoc? just close one eye" ... i think it make sense i tried to cool down and endure .. all for the sake to get pass this fucking attachment quickly

after lunck break , i was still moodless .. but i need to thank the person who looks strict and unfriendly but isnt really that sort ... he actually helped me to fix and change printer location(that bitch doesnt even knows) and even wanted to treat me with some coffee ... it kinda changed my mood ..

And that bitch just pile my work up as if i was some fucking maid or what .. my objective is to ASSIT the fucking customer service sector not to SERVE u as a maid ...

Today infront of my supervisor(also quite a fuck up person anyway) she mentioned quite clearly she TAUGHT me how to do this and that .. yes i dun deny that .. she showed me everything to do once but she didnt bothered whether i really understand or not ? How about i show u the configurations of configurating 3 routers and create some decent networking and u do them all at once ?

from 5-550 ... she suppose to teach me other concepts .. but as usual dun understand a single shit either is it chinese or ur so call engrish ... i bet i understand better with some local instead of foreign talents like u ...Who knows maybe if some guy teach me those in cantonese or hokkien i can understand if they know what they talking about ...

U mentioned u dun like to have kids rite ? Please do everyone a favour .. dont ... although singapore shortage of human resource ... but still dont need bitches or bastards from u ... one of u is already enough

Its already so bad to be under u ... i wonder how kids under ur upbrining will be like ... which i pity the kid if any ... Oh before i forgot ... end of the day u said this rite ?

"Can u work on saturdays or sunday ? I really need ur help ... u consider first .. if u agree i can actually request ..." After all the shit i went through like today u expect me to have more of it ? ...i was just being kind and replied that i would see how and if i had anything on on saturdays

The actuall reply i suppose to make was "No way in the blue fucking hell will i work for bitches like u :)" burning up my precious saturday/sunday to come back for u ? plz la .. u think u chio or what ... okay thats only one of the factors ... coming back and work like a dog and treated like a maid ....

I am already willing to comprimise so much to my disadvantage... most of the time things given to me are done with quality and precision ... please dun take advantage of that

Last but not least i suggest u go back to ur mainland and sell rice or be a farmer or whatever crap u can do ... dun come here and give everyone a hard time like what i am facing now as a unlucky attachment student ...

To say something more constructive ... i think i need to start adding comments and my personal stuff to my weekly reports to my LO ... cause it starts to get too stressful already

2008-09-08T19:49:00.002+08:00

a day that turns better ...

today at the start of the day ... my mood was already bad ... previous night had a very bad sleep ... was awoken by some idiot calling my phone ... and when i looked at the damn time its around 2+ ....

its very hard to get back to sleep .. but the strange thing is .. once i drift back to my dream world again .. Had a very nice dream ... and its related to relationship with girls ... Quite a nice dream but it isnt real ..

Anyway when i woke up again i was damn tired ... and i looked very dull around morning time when i havent eaten anything much ... And i realized how different two people can teach things to me ...

One being patient and willing to teach me ... another give u irritating comments when u dun really understand whats going on ... and simply cant understand a shit what the person is teaching ...

I wont go and pin point the person who spoilt my mood but ... i would really wished to do the same to that person if i am a supervisor of that person and i am suppose to teacher him/her networking or website designing ... and i am going to do it twice to that person ...

within 10 minutes i had already understand what the patient staff is teaching to me ... the other ? it took around 2-3 days i dun understand a shit ... simply because that person's english is difficult to understand and his/her pronunciation stinks and simply no patience at all ...

During break time , had opportunity to lunch with another 2 staff from other sectors ... me being moody already ... had no intention to chat with anyone just ate and be silence ...

however, one guy started to ask me if i was a "new guy" in chinese ... den i started explaining i was from nyp and was here for attachment ... den another woman asked me which specialization or course i was from ... Mit .... and just nice her daughter is also from nyp mit but year 2 ...

i thought i can have a chance to know her daugther lol .... but seems the name she told me was someone unheard of ... in fact i cant even remember what was the name she told me ...

I begin to yet again dread about the work i am given when i was asked about the skills i learned in poly (html,programming,network...) but still i need to thanks these people to allow me to be able to voice out my opinions and feelings ...

The woman actually knows i dun really do this kind of job ... and consoled me that each got its pros and cons ... Felt relieved but helpless ... because nth will be changed ... i still have to do the same shit for 3 months .. no chance i will be transfered to other sectors to do other things ...

Met david after work and went home ... at least able to talk about stuff ... at least able to know i am not the only one suffering from attachment work ... also met si hui(surprisingly) and david's friend in train ... alrite thats about it ...

gonna spent the next precious 2 hours of entertainment available for me ... Fighting! for weekends

2008-09-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

attachment stinks

A job that u are doing by forcing urself to do is really torturous ... there was disputes among some students during the briefing of how far their work place are from their homes ...

me not minding if the work place is far if the work i am given is something i like doing ... before the time my supervisor suppose to fetch me... another supervisor or representative actually wanted to take the remaining of the iap students... saying he dun mind more people ...

but then upon hearing that over the phone... my current supervisor quickly accepted me and another guy ... If not maybe now i will be working around sin ming ... who knows .. maybe the work i am given will be way better than what i am doing currently ...

what i felt was the current supervisor accepted me half-heartedly initially... why shud i get this type of choice chosen for me instead of me being the one to choose ... they didnt even know there were attachment students waiting for them ... good grief

the current supervisor seems to have frequent mood swings as well ... half a second he can joke and another second he can talk to his staff in a way as if he is scolding the hell out of them ...

there are so called some internal disputes among the staff themselves ... but i dun really care ... all i want is to get my results for this attachment ... and good riddance to this company.. i am seriously looking forward to that day .. currently looking forward to weekends .. but really .. i dun even feel relaxed or less stressed-out when i know the following weekday i will be working like shit again ...

The first few days was few of the worst especially monday and tuesday ... it totally wore me out .. going back home .. have dinner .. around 1 or 2 hr later can just instant sleep ... and wake up around 6 o clock and get rdy to go work ... it repeats for 5 days ...

but actually wednesday onwards i am kind of used to it already ... but its still tiring ... my jogging sessions became less and less as well ...

However, i have some really good staffs around me to guide me along ... almost everyone around .. anything i asked are given with slow explanations and guidance ... but i felt that they are already so busy that i am afraid asking them is sort of a burden ...

thats the feeling i hate ... but it is still better than anyhow do ... I also was treated by one of the staff to some japanese food on friday because he will be leaving soon ... i also can understand why with the working condition...

Thats my first time having the oppoturnity to eat such expensive food as a treat by someone else with me being a nobody but a week iap student ..

anyway ... one of the female staff(some china woman) told me that i shud continue my studies after NS ... that would be university ... i kind of agree and already intended to go uni ... she told me the pay difference is great ... but what i felt is whether i can make it into uni is another matter ...

Lately, have been thinking of other things while working ... my hands are typing or doing work... filing or using the system ... but my mind is definitely not there ... luckily it didnt affect my work productivity ...

the feeling is exactly like what i posted before in previous posts .... it just came back every now and then ... its quite uneasy ... Anyway .. during the so called farewell japanese food treat ... i got to see quite a few cute girls around .... girls i might never get a chance to see in my working area infested with aunties ... but well there were actually some in the HR ... but i wont get a chance to go there ...

An extremely long post but it speaks my mind completely .... Fighting!

2008-09-02T20:21:00.003+08:00

Attachment .....

With my weak stamina in study/work ... its easy to predict how tough life is in attachment ...

day 1

Met with 2 friends alvin(engineering) and david(shun wei's friend) waited for some time in founders hall until we are leaded to another room for some presentation....

Aside from presentation being boring ... i was extremely tired right from the start ...almost fell asleep ... speaking which .. there was around 22 students ... 2 from np 3 from sp the rest nyp ... There was quite a cute girl from np ... nyp have one too ..

but in the end like i expected ... they were never seen again because of different apartments or they were sent to other office branches ...

Ocassionally i can see some familiar faces from the same group .. and another guy is in the same department area but different sector ...

After the break have to wait around 1 hr plus for supervisor to fetch me .. by then the waiting room only left with me and another guy under the same supervisor is waiting restlessly ... others by then have already gone with their supervisors ...

When i know what i am suppose to do .. i thought what i learned in the past is totally useless ... the module closest to what i am doing now is itsm ... customer service group....

After knowing whats the job like .. i assure in future i will never do anything related to this type of work ... sigh ..

second day is around the same like first day ... just more paper work and more tiring ... When the supervisor was wondering that some business related student to help out and why i am not posted to media related stuff ... i really like to ask him the same question "Why am I posted here and not to media related stuff?"

Sometime life really stinks when u dun have a choice ... On the brighter note .. the supervisor guiding/teaching me now is really nice .. making sure he doesnt forget to let me take tea breaks(althought i dun) and even offered me biscuits lol ... others are also pretty nice ... and the work place is very near my house ...

Everything is good but just the work related isnt ... although its still early ... but i really look forward to 22 november .... Fighting !

2008-08-30T00:07:00.002+08:00

Iap

Monday onwards will be having attachment near boon lay ... during iap briefing when i saw how some get attachment programmes near my home .. i kind of expect i will be posted around the west area which is a good thing ...

besides that .. got to know at least 2 guys in the same working area as me ... one is shun wei's friend and another was someone i got to know that day during LO briefing .. at least its a good start ...

Sigh tml gonna get some new stuff like polo tees and a bag perhaps ... Just ytd .. one of my best buddies from secondary sch times called me up ... and actually asked me whether i wanted to go back secondary sch together with the rest ...

well had my reason and he understands ... but we promised to meet up to eat with the rest sometime in future ... sigh .. now to think of it .. kind of miss studying with those buddies back in secondary sch days ...

the feeling of studying together, skip sch together(lol), pontend sch, gather and beo girls during recess time/break time and talk crap and joke around, teach each other maths, take extra lessons , play basketball after schools in uniforms, getting caught for leaving sch early or playing poker cards in class.

Missed all of these ... sometimes friends from the next class just join in with us when they have no lessons ... Already around 2-3 years since we last met in secondary sch meet up for teachers day when i was year 1 ...

suddenly receiving his call ytd just remind all the great times in the past ... well ... good things/memories in the past are worth looking and recalling every now and then ... but its not good to look/stay in the past ...

Heard his doing his attachment as well ... wished them the best of luck and to myself ...

Lately, can get quite paranoid and think of things continuously to the point its bugging me ... just can stop thinking and it quite affects my mood ... really cant afford to be like this when i start work on monday ...Its 3 months and i hope it can pass as fast as it would like how getting year 1 to year 3 does ...

Till then ... Fighting!

2008-08-26T17:07:00.002+08:00

Mixed feelings

Exams over .. feel very relieved ... but whether results thats out will be satisfactory is another matter .. so far the 4 exams .. none of it i have done i felt i am extremely confident or do i know all of the answers ...

but well .. i dun think i have time to worry about all that ... so soon for attachment ... in fact its on monday ... and yet to know which compnay i will be going into ... and tml is the briefing already ....

have this " i feel very bored" mentality ... i hope its just that lack of sleep i been getting during this exam period ... really feel so worn out from all the studying ...

shall find out more bout it ...

2008-08-20T21:21:00.002+08:00

Time to buck up ?

Sigh bei jing Olympics really comes at the wrong time ... thanks to it .. i have been losing focus and been watching it almost everyday(channel 601 - 606) during the 1 week study break ... and today taken my first 3848 and it was horrible ...

during semester 2 year 2 i took india china studies ... i thought it was just trying to crap around and talk about history ... but it also mentioned about Olympics which is really very important for china ... But after studying that elective i have a better idea about its significance

it actually tried to prove about china capabilities ... getting so many gold medals ahead of most of the countries just shows how strong the country actually is ....

anyway the nicer events i thought was diving, swimming, gymnastics and table tennis ... a lot more but maybe i miss some ... how to catch all of them at the same time if they showed on 6 channels at once =/ ...

but what i thought was inspiring was especially Michael Phelps for swimming and wining 8 gold medals ... he were on the papers and everything ... i have to say he inspired me to take on more swimming (to keep fit) ... rather than running all the time ...

shall start once i get the chance .... Sigh long post on Olympics suggest on how much effort i put for 3848 paper today ... although the questions he said would come out really did .... the other 2 questions i was just filling it up with absolute rubbish that i doubt the amount of marks i can get for it would even statisfy a 10/25 points...

Well since its over ... i think it made me a little more serious ... time to study hard ...

Fighting!

2008-08-08T23:02:00.002+08:00

Fatigue + sore throat

been extremely tired from Wednesday till today ... comms skills on Wednesday and during thusday was already half dead as well .. and have to study for 3849 ... actually have a lot of time to study ... but in the end from morning drag all the way till night just to cover nicely ...

in the past used to be able to cover most of the things in 4 to 5 hrs ... really not focus enough .... i guess i have been thinking of other things these few days ... it probably drag away my attention to focus fully on my common tests ... and speaking of me wanting to make a difference in year 3 was perhaps just using my mouth to say ...

anyway since the paper is already over , it seems there's not much point on dreading things thats done ... the paper generally was okay , mcq i actually practised quite a few times in cms ... at least half of it was out ... section b wise ... felt that i have already lost 10 marks for the last question =/ ...

well as usual ... studied more than was required ... and all these made me really tired ... if my study "stamina" was half as good as my sports "stamina" would really be great ...

had been abusing dosage of strepsils ... although maximum is 12 per day .. i think i already exceeded the range ... and i even woke up in middle of the night today and felt my throat was extremely dry and uncomfortable ...

Thankfully today , after a nice jogging in the peaceful evening ... I "seem" to settled down for a while ... at least my mind is clearer and been thinking lesser and lesser ... although having sore throat ... running wasnt all that bad ... even felt slightly better after that ...

4 more papers to go ... and right after the final paper is already the attachment briefing ... sigh .. things are going abit too fast ...

2008-08-06T21:27:00.002+08:00

First paper

First paper taken today ... comms skills .. actually studied for a very long time ytd .. and in the end it seems i studied more than its tested ... kind of waste my effort memorizing the extras ...

Find that it is very tiring this 2 days at least ... ytd started studying from 1pm + break + games all the way till around night time and this morning revised on and off around 1 pm before i took lunch outside ...

Today while i was outside ... i was actually half-dead ... already used up too much energy in memorizing/revising .. anyway ate at a coffeeshop and i still have quite sometime before i need to take mrt to sch ...

walk around lot1 .. seems like got some new renovations going on ... new shops .. quite alot of new stuff that i didnt noticed before ... went to arcade to just watch some games before heading off ....

saw some army guys at the arcade playing kof ... seeing their army shirts is like a reminder of whats going to happen a year later ...

when i reached sch there was still a lot of time ... kind of around 30 minutes before hand ... thats why i really hate going sch early ... still need to wait and wait ... something that i hated most ...

Overall the paper was okay ... not all the answers i can answer confidently ... but shud be satisfactory ... still have 1 common test and 4 exams ....

2008-07-31T19:49:00.002+08:00

Last week

Finally have reached to the last week of this semester for studying period ... after this week will be common test week and a week after that would be exams already .. its really fast

this week have loads of tests/quiz as well and tomorrow is the worst with 2 theory quiz/test and one lab test

Today before going to sch to present what we did for internet security ... felt extremely hungry .. i thought i could eat first before i go ... but i decide not to and just grab some food from shops and went to school

and luckily i did the right thing ... the ids i configured ytd was all gone ... really affected my mood quite alot .. in the end have to spent time to reinstall and reconfigure everything ... and thanks to a little help from angela and eugene .. able to get it working again ...

got to know that i will be doing attachment next semester first ... heard the only difference of doing attachment first is that fyp later will be related to attachment while doing the other way round ... fyp might not be related to attachment ...

anyway been very tired this week ... hope to get some good rest ...

2008-07-24T00:06:00.004+08:00

BMTC visit

Today was actually bmtc visit at pulau tekong ... went and reached there around 1+ .. went though quite alot of stuff ... saw some videos ,, heard some talking ... see here and there ...

Thought it will be a meaningless trip .. guess it wasnt that bad afterall .. besides this will be the place most pple have to visit one year later ... More of like orientation than anything else ... the only thing i tried was using the m-16 for virtual shooting ...

quite okay .. but the recoil is quite impactful when it hits my right arm ... during the time i was sitting in the ferry actually made me tired ... and wanted to sleep ... felt a little lethargic after we have to get down from it ....

Saw few things like the sleeping area, facilities , army clothings etc etc ... overall have to say they really make army training life "look" & "sounds" good ... whether in reality its really that good is another matter ...

saw quite a few testimonials and had quite a few negative ones ... some comments were quite amusing ... like how they describe bmtc training is as tough as hell etc ...

Things people dun look forward to always arrive faster than most can imagine ... good and bad things comes to an end as well ... reaching year 3 seems like it was just a week or two matter ... really fast

quite a lot of tests will start soon ... cant wait where the time i can just study and come for exams... i am kind of sick of endless and boring lessons ....

2008-07-17T22:41:00.003+08:00

Week 14

In a blink of time, it is already week 14 - near a start of week 15 ... time files extremely fast. In fact, poly life seem to pass very fast ... in around 2-3 weeks time is already common test and another 4 weeks times is exam period .... another 5-6 weeks time will be either the start of attachment or fyp ...

sometimes wished that time can last a little longer for a certain period ... guess not .. so its better to move on ..

so many freaking quiz to do by next week ... and more have yet to come ... and it gets really boring .. and my eyes get very tired now adays ... should rest more i guess ...

Met kane today during break time . Asked me whether i wanted to buy a shirt from mass order ... Since most of the war3 players buying it .. should also support and buy ... but got words like stfu lol ... luckily my parents wont understand those type of short forms .. so should be okay ..

Find it abit left out when i know cant join wcg this year again(3 times already) but most other players can ... i even know some of them skip common tests for it ... but well .. i not gonna do that .. my future and current education really overwhelmed everything else ..

Anyway wcg prizes for war3 standard is getting worse and worse ... no sponsor to overseas(germany), no accommodation , no prize money(the main point of taking part) but all in exchange for some samsung products ... but also in the cost of 5 dollars registration ...

so can say it isnt that bad .. but its getting worse .. and too bad i dun have the time to join ... 7-8 august and common test is 6 and 8 august =/ ...

I seem to settled myself down... calmed down ... and seem to stop thinking about all the nonsense that happen(in my mind and reality) quite recently... hope it stays this way ...

2008-07-11T21:58:00.003+08:00

Bad day

Had basketball session with eugene,ping ding,yc ... was quite fun ... eventhough had no shirt to change ....Have to go to the toilet to dry my shirt with the hands dryer ... sigh getting more and more forgetful when eugene even asked me whether i want basketball on friday and i agreed ...

after school today , went to bugis to exchange the shirt i bought one day ago ... Only when my mom washed the shirt and realized there was a hole near the tag ...

//bad day begins from here on wards ....
when i reached ... went straight to bugis street .. and asked for an exchange .. this time it was not the kind,friendly guy ... instead was an auntie ...

At first , she asked me whether i had washed the shirt before and i told her yes .. she said , Since its washed i cannot change. When i showed her the hole in the shirt, She suspected i cut a hole in the shirt and wanted an exchange cause of that ...

Seriously, when my mom told me she didnt i believed 100% and believed it was problem of the shirt ... She had helped me cut off countless number of t-shirt tags ... why on earth she would be so careless to make a so obvious hole in the shirt

Trying to keep my calm ... just nice a guy told me i can exchange this time then next time i should not wash and checked the shirt before washing ... i was thankful .. but the bitch looked at the shirt again and said ... "haha must be ur mom cut a hole in the shirt" ... i flared up and pointed
out the part my mom cut the tag was on the right and the hole was on lower left ...

And the hole does not look like a cut from sissors .... "how the hell u make a circular hole from a sissors unless u pierce through it ? Even piercing through it might not give a circular hole " And to think my mom have nothing better to do but pierce through my shirt ? ... nice thinking bitch ... i really wont forget ur face ...

i was quite pissed off at that point of time ... i think i proceed to another shop and got it changed in the end .. and just walked off ... it really kills my mood to look further for anything ...

beside this shit ordeal, my bag have one of it's zip snapped out from my bag ... during lecture today around 3+4+ ... dunno what's so bad i did in the past that i deserve all the nonsense i faced today

on top of that all , during the trip , my mood was already pretty down and tired ... Actually know the reason why , but it really wont make a difference if i have to think of it .. nothing is solved that way ...

I think everything should let nature choose its path , and i wont think about it anymore ... or else i might go crazy ... Thankfully , i feel alrite now ... calmed down , cooled down... its time to think less ...

2008-07-04T20:21:00.004+08:00

1st week

Well finally can relax for a moment ... although sch just started .. so many things happened ... lets see monday was itsm presentation (pretty cocked up for my part) .. picture paints a thousand words ... this lecturer really not sick of speaking the same thing over and over ...

tuesday was introduced with a new lab for us at level 5 room .. must say its really spacious .. but have a smell of wood, burning smell .. really makes my nose very sensitive ... still this is good especially i can slack around at the back

wednesday was comms skill presentation ... i must say it was "quite" fun as in quite alot of funny stuff happen here and there ... ... and i didnt know tying a tie can be so difficult ...

actually got some tips from youtube to learn how to tie the previous nite ... but the day itself .. i think i tried around 5-6 times tying and untying ... ended up late for like around 40 minutes .. luckily the teacher wasnt angry or anything ... though felt quite bad about it ...

dunno when will this lateless spree of mine ends ... now today is friday .. feel a little relieve from all the work i put in this week ... loads of work ..

lately felt abit emo out of the blue .. quite unlike me to get emo .. but got the feeling back again .. i think i may know whats causing all these .. sigh .. hope this feeling get off me sooner ..

2008-06-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

2-3 weeks break

Finally have the so called mid term "break" .. gonna last around 3 weeks including a common test week ... one paper at the moment .. but still have loads of other things to do ... comms skill interview,ict project,itsm, itsm project ... so many things ...

the week was really horrible .. like had 5 tests including theory/lab test ... So far this will be my worst performance of all the 3 years(for class test) ... felt like myself being a fool .. test and i still try to ask here and there non-stop ... i really hate the feeling of myself being the incapable one ... and have to depend on others ...

maybe its time to get a little more serious after break ... cause i was quite disappointed ... eventhough the test results wont be out soon .. i already know roughly how i will score .. and its definitely not really good ...

dunno what i have been doing for past 8 weeks ... have to let teacher say things like " already week 8 and still dunno" or "year 3 already ... still dunno" ... maybe just that networking isnt my strong point but i still chose the specialization .. dunno how my future will be like t.t ....

anyway recently, have been catching up with my basketball buddies ... long time never see them but when we met ... felt that we just met a day ago or smth ... joke and had fun playing basketball ... really .. i can enjoy playing basketball forever ... it never bores me out ...

and through friends u get to know other friends very easily ... met so many new faces and became friends instantly .. maybe thats the passion for basketball that get everyone together ... after our games are always a eating session at either a coffeeshop near bukit panjang( around fajar secondary sch) or greenridge plaza ...
enjoyed the times we ate and joke about ... and especially interesting to know when one of the guys from army share his experience with us ... normally laughing off with how they describe the stuff inside

alrite ... hope to update with more intersting stuff next time ..

2008-05-20T22:05:00.003+08:00

Year 3 Week 6

So far havent describe year 3 life ... at first the class was cleanly divided ... classes from each former classes clustered to themselves .. however slowly get to know most of the pple ...

labs ? lectures ? intersting modules? sadly all is simply dull like sh*t to me at least ... no html that i at least favored and like through out all the modules ...

during comms skills ... teacher asked us to look for a job ad and write a resume out of it ... looked at my specialization ... i was like darn .. why i didnt think properly before i chose the specialization ... all the jobs ads i was interested in are the web developings sectors ...

cnet that i learned simply will be put to no use in that sector obviously ... but on the side note .. it wasnt that bad after all since i dun have to take the challenge to learn some hardcore javaing/databasing ... which might be needed in web developing

sigh time to change contact lens for now ... they are getting my eyes extremely tired when i take out or put on ... and now my eyes are semi-reddish ...

before finishing this ranting ... really wished i can have some luck t.t ....

2008-04-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

blue screen of death

The last time i got this shit was very long ago . Maybe even years .... what happen ? one fine day playing game and then ... the game stuck and crash ... congrats to me .. a blue screen of death ...

so for 4 days or so ... didnt do any shit but keep figuring what the hell really happened .. and its really irritating when u are not clear whats wrong ....

actually tried system restore to a previous state ... hmm didnt work ... then i thought maybe it was my low hard disk space ... i dun even know how i get low hard disk space in the first place .... but i saw my com only have 400 mb in c drive ... ok so clear some rubbish till around 5-6 gig ...

and it still didnt work ... then i suspected my com must be infected with some very godlike trojan horse or virus ... scan my com like 3-4 times .. spybot,window defender, adware,spyware blaster ... and it didnt scan any thing out of it ....

with specs of my com ... shudnt really be hardware problem .. 2-3 days did nothing to my com but endless restoring and leading the wrong direction ... have to rely on my bros com to do sch work .... and my bro's com is even faster at the state of my com that time ...

finally i gave up and ask my bro to have a look ... at first thought was some crash of the graphic card .. but then quite unlikely .... then my bro told me its possible it is wireless adaptor through the usb port ....

so i tried booting the com without the usb ... and my com was as fast as it shud be already ... then .. when i plug in the adaptor ... and the familiar screen take place again ... its like some sort of virus .. plug in and give u the screen ...

the ordeal doesnt seems to end ... then what i thought was it might be some problem with software programs instead .... indeed ... this moring just unistall hamachi -> ip based program ... it somehow screwed my connection ... quite unexplainable of why the program make my com crash when there are so many other people using it as well ....

anyway out of all these .. i think the hardest part was always to figure out whats the problem ... the blue screen seriously dont point out anything much ... been fine so far till now ... during the blue screen ordeal ... cant even last for a few seconds

but also thanks to this blue screen i gain some troubleshoot skills lol...

2008-03-25T23:27:00.005+08:00

take a flight again ....

my first ever flight was taken during 2006-2007 ... cant remember when was it but its still good memories despite some undesirable conditions ... the reason i thought about flight again is because just yesterday ... my family and relatives were at the airport ...

singapore is really one of the world class airport .... and perhaps one of the things singapore can really brag about ...

these few days ... several days ... for a week .. actually went 4 times to kinda spent time with my uncle .... it was mixed feelings ... at one hand i didnt really wanna go ... and the other i thought i shud spent time wif my uncle at least ...

the thought of going to my grandfather's place is really unappealing ... but still ... went in the end .. its boring but cant really be helped ... for the sake of visiting my uncle was my mentality ...

overall was okay thanks to my uncle's visit perhaps ... when my uncle bid us good bye to check in ... waving our hands at him ... some how i felt it was kind of a happiness feeling ... for some strange reasons at least .. maybe its the feeling of able to see him make his to check in peacefully ...

that scene particularly reminded me of how i bid farewell to my dad back then ... it was kinda the same and the feeling was really great ... but i was able to have the feeling from 2 sides ... being the one able to bid and being bid farewell ...

hope i can take more flights in future ...

2008-02-19T16:59:00.003+08:00

one down two to go ...

... really lack of sleep ... only slept around 4-5 hrs yesterday ... was really exhausted today .... and the worst thing is gonna take test as well today ... not the worst day but shud be one of the worst

weather lately is bad as well ... argh feel like fainting right away when i woke up today and while walking to school ... feel like body with no energy

the test overall is okay ... like i usually will say if anyone asks =/ but i was really tired during mrt trip through and fro ... wait and wait make me tired t.t

but well despite all these ... its really reliving that i can throw away my notes that i prepared in cards that look like presentation cards that were used .... but well .. it really works for me and suits me for studying purposes ...

tonite really have to get back some nice sleep ...

2008-02-12T23:15:00.000+08:00

phew ... finally left wif 3 exams t.t

Almost forgot whats my blog address ... sigh so busy past few weeks ...
well .. finally ... most of the rubbish and nonsense (projects) are finally dealt with ... really hate projects ... because it seems there is limitless amount of improvement .. then my personality to strive and work for the best always stuck with me ... always resulting me in working extremely hard .... and animation was really a pain in the ass ... its worse than java for me at least (the programming portion)

working extremely hard is one thing though ... but the end result can be same as pple who put lesser effort ... or could be other way round and there's no guarantee.... t.t thats why things like java are stuff i shud never work wif ...(remembering how i spent countless hours doing jimmy ang's work t.t)

though sense of satisfaction from the result is another thing all together .... hmm ... shall quickly settle down with the exams soon enough ... had been telling myself to start study early ... if not last minute rush ... but its actually difficult when u now have time ... until there is really no time u start to appreciate time ... and time never waits =/

thankfully to have more time ... i push away competition on saturday(warcraft3 1v1) ..well actually wanted to go ... but well ... on second thoughts ... only first prize of 100(is rather little compared to most) 2nd and 3rd gets ? $0 ... and i dun even know whats the purpose for 3rd placing (3rd = losers in semi-finals fight each other) ...

actually if this is after exams then it would be okay ... just that it is before .... and if i didnt win first prize .. i would have wasted a day that could be better make used of ... and i feel uncomfortable playing when i know there are much more important stuff right ahead ...

wasting effort without gaining anything is really a phobia among most players ... but cant really be helped =/ ... sigh dunno if there will be any more competitions this year .... till then .. fighting~!~!~

2008-01-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

simply exhausting ....

Today on the way to sch actually saw the super cute girl that has not appeared for a long time ..... in fact today actually got a rare chance to see her in a really matching pinkish dress ... well sometimes just see for fun isnt a bad thing ... even if she wear normally i bet she still outshines alot of girls who knows how to dress

anyway she was just cuter today xD ... ok anyway today really felt like a idiot ... and didnt expect history to repeat so fast .... its the same exact scenario for george tan's project ... realize that i forgot to bring work suppose to hand up and i actually make a point to did it early -_- ... and i make a trip back home and back to sch

did it as early as it was assigned and end up not bringing it ... how lame ... and i have to say its extremely exhausting and it really makes me no mood for anything ... even dinner time ... i was not even hungry ... i dun even have the mood to eat ... and the dinner was terrible argh ...

ok next was the presentation ... half of the time i also dunno what i am talking about ... just like forcing myself to say something of what i found .... being so inexperienced in these kind of business i really got screwed up pretty badly ....

anyway ... i still respect how knowledgeable lecturer edmund is ... he has full of knowledge (eventhough is his job) i really salute for his knowledge lol ...i wish i was as knowledgeable like him but too bad i aint ... i dun read enough newspapers or anything near that to know that much

hopefully next time i could ... being knowledgeable is really respectful and makes one wants to respect that individual ... gonna work towards that as a goal perhaps ....in chinese its simply call "bo xue duo wen" ... i dun even know how to write it in chinese but i know what it means ....it simply means know alot of things or full of knowledge ...

okay anyway ... really short of time ... so many projects ... its really killing me ... and "time never waits"

gotta get a hold of myself ... and fighting through

2008-01-07T21:55:00.001+08:00

pretty busy

Have lost the enthusiasm to blog these few weeks since pretty much on a tight schedule .... realize that i have been too into it that i realize i neglected impt pple around me .... my family ... old sch friends ...

last saturday was a really work out for me ... been around a good 8-9months since i get my hands on a basketball .... needless to say it was a fun session ... but an especially fun one since it was a really good play and sportsmanship xD

i were on the same team wif a guy that i complain so much and loathe about ... but that day he was on my team ... it was like another story all together ... team work just bond friendship just like this pretty easily .... in the end he even suggested me on his team since we played really well ....

anyway besides playing well .. i can see some of the old familiar faces of my really good basketball pals ... even though during sec sch days ... all of them werent from my sch .. i am pretty close wif them ...

anyway ... it was really fun ... full of laughters and heated sports action was in overall summarize by a word ..."enjoyment" that day was especialy good since there werent bad plays .. or made any serious to play ... all just played fair and square ..

even its like a year since we meet each other for some ... it was just as if we met and say hi to each other just yesterday .... this must be the magic of basketball that keeps the bond within .. since we all enjoy playing together

alrite that day ended wif a firm handshake after the games ... and promise to have another session near future

after that day will be followed by a series of projects and presentations ... is so sickening to think about every of them ... lets see ... wednesday ... internet security .... thusday my elective .... following monday will be market place ... friday need to hand up details for project ... on and on

have to hang on .... gotta stay healthy ... cant fall sick ... so many things i want to do ... and i just have no time at all ... hope i finish all of them soon .... i want to have some enjoyment ...

till then ... .FIGHTING!@!@!@

2008-01-07T21:55:00.000+08:00

2007-12-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

christmas eve's

Singapore a no snow country ... only filled with hot and cold weather .. today was near rain ...

anyway shud summarize these few days ... yesterday finished a similar dinner like last year ... the food was really insufficient ... and why's that so ?

the host's daughter have a really big group of students who attend t.t ... but well it was pretty much the same last year wif these group of pple ... but i remember having more meat to eat last yr compared to this year ....

but well not to complain when they are the host and they decide ... and dun even have to think about those food when those students were already crowding around the turkey ...

but well i manage to keep myself full in the end ... and my relatives are bugging me to go to my grandfather's place more often ... which i find annoying when there are other pple who just dun go as often ....

only one relative didnt ask similar questions ... kinda appreciate it ..dunno why i hate going there ... o who give a damn about them anyway ... t.t ..

anyway on the way back ... stop by at one of my aunts block ... cause her com got problem and my bro went up to help out ... i just stared blankly at a playground(indoor) i always used to play ...

strangely there werent much vivid memories ... but i went out of my dad's car and let cool breeze blew at my face ... it was really cooling ... realize how cooling during night time ... i think i wont mind taking a stroll more often during night time at all

anyway ... today i actually wanted to get a ps2 game ... so went out to bukit panjang ... while taking lrt ... a family of 3 ... i dunno if they are retarded but switching on music so loudly .... they didnt bothered if it bothers anyone else or smth ...

nvm .. perhaps nth much ... while before one stop to the station i shud drop off apprantly the kid spill some water to my leg ... i suddenly have a cool sensation at the back of my legs ... i was startled and then looked back .. if that wasnt bad enough .. the shit kid chose to keep laughing like a retard ..

i think i looked back twice or thrice more ... tho not directly into their eyes ... i just want to see how stupid that kid was ... apparantly he think it was funny to him ...

luckily he didnt spill it when i was facing him ... cause i think i will just stare directly to him ... sigh nth much to say about kids these days also ...

anyway ... went straight to the game shop ... to my horror ... the way they sell games was pathetic like shit ... what happened to all those ringed files that contain the games info ? i remember there are 4-5 full books ... naming actions,rpg,sports etc etc ... now is like an all in one ... paper ....

a single paper to name all the games ... pathetic ... normally u only buy games wif first impression on the game itself ... now u dun even get to see the pictures and u dun even know what the heck the game is about and just wif names ? .. its like using ur luck to buy gmaes with just name

luckily i knew what i want ... tho they dun have jap version of the game .... and i dun even understand jap but willing to play it ... why ? just how horrible most usa dub most of the games ....the voice acting simply make me feel like playing games wif my ears shut or no volume ...

dunno if they give a "i dun care attitude" when doing the va's or they dun suit it at all ... at least jap voices tho i dun understand ... sounds way way nicer ... its exactly like watching naruto wif english subs if u play us dub games now adays ... yucks ...

anyway .. wasnt really an empty trip .. since i bought dinner from there ... i think 1 or 2 years since i last went there ... the place is really getting worse and worse ... last time always seek opportunity to go ... and was really filled wif cute girls/ah lians ... now lesser but still have .... so wasnt too bad ...

ok thats about it ... not forgetting a merry christmas to wish each and every viewers ~!~!~

2007-12-18T18:43:00.000+08:00

summary

was really extremely tired past few days that i totally neglected alot of stuff ... spent quite alot of time replenish my insufficient sleep .. competitons are over pretty quickly ... and i lose both kode5 and gxl in the first games itself ...

actually day 2 (sat) i was very tired and didnt have enough sleep and they require us to go down to republic poly to play on 8pm ... which is kind of bullshit if u ask me ... anyway .. there goes my games ... first game i actually won pretty easily ... and i lose the other 2 games just as easily as well ....

seems like my routine of losing the first game wasnt there ... normally i would always lose the first and win back the rest ... i think alot of pple are asking me things like "dark/darky ... why u lose" and i have to reply to all of them the pretty same way .... ud mirror is made this way ... thats all i could reply ...

cause mirror games doesnt mean u play better u can win ... its pretty strange ... and there goes the hope of winning 1k ... we all joke around before heading home ...

the next day was very tight schedule ...report at 9.30 and i didnt get enough sleep at all ... i went there half dead ... and i wasnt even affected when i lose the first game to my first opponent(who eventually turn champ of that competition) ...

was i really disappointed ? answer is no and i dunno why ... perhaps because i was outplayed to feel that ... i will normally be disappointed losing close games and being the final game wif the score of 1-1 ...

and normally i will have the urge to *kill* (to win) anyone in my way ... a sort of aura(no i dun watch too much anime) to kill and trash pple totally upside down ... the determination to win ...

all these werent in my mind that day ... in fact my mind all along was blank ... wrong strategies ... wrong everything ... and one classic and simplest mistake .. i let my hero die without teleporting to town safely .. it cause my game on my first game ...

ok anyway left quite emptied .. didnt felt like staying ...and when i reach the entrance .. i was greeted by john " How u lose to him!?" ... -_- i mean i had enough of such questions ... but i dun blame them cause they normally only see me kill the other side ...

anyway ... maybe i have to prepare more before hand ... seems like everyone is upgrading and i am rusting ... but wondering i shud train when there isnt competiton for now and near future ... perhaps i play for fun and upgrade myself time to time ...

o before i end this post .... republic poly girls really have a good standard and wont really lose to nyp girls ..... and besides ... those singnet flyer girls made my day xD ...

2007-12-14T18:56:00.003+08:00

kode5 day 1 ....

return home around 1 or 2 hr before now ... and i have to say today was a actually quite a fun day wif the jokes and stuff ....but felt i was really tired towards the end .. that when i reach home .. i actually fall asleep while sitting on my bed ... i actually have around 10 minutes of instant sleep ...

tho still tired now ... expecting a really good rest tonite after practising wif galvin ...
so maybe i summarise today ...

so the location is in the basement level of republic poly ... first thought of going there was to see girls ... maybe i elaborate about girls in rp ...

suppose to meet up wif galvin hiok shana and vello ... actually i thought i was gonna be late today that i even msg galvin earlier ... to my surprise i was even considered early .. when there were pple who arrived later than me .. anyway walking to rp was actually pretty simple ... just follow shelter and cross a road or two and u are there ...

anyway ... there were several disconnects today ... it pisses quite a no. of pple ... i wasnt considered one since mine was 5 minutes ... there were pple who play 30 minutes and dc ... not once but more than that ... today was actually pretty simple .. i only played one game and the rest were walk overs ...

and we spent time fooling around when john was playing against girlyluck ... lol was really fun .. anyway .. girls there are pretty much the same as anywhere else ... but just a few that were more special were those singtel girls passing flyers ... and looked pretty cute xD ... when we were about to leave.. one approach us and gave it before we left ... smth about the broadband stuff since they are working under singtel ..

she looked pretty cute at least .. anyway .. tml and the day after will still have competitions ... sat at 8pm(bullshit timing) and i tihnk sunday will be one whole day ... see how it goes ... at least new faces of girls is worth my trip xD

2007-12-14T18:56:00.002+08:00

kode5 day 1 ....

return home around 1 or 2 hr before now ... and i have to say today was a actually quite a fun day wif the jokes and stuff ....but felt i was really tired towards the end .. that when i reach home .. i actually fall asleep while sitting on my bed ... i actually have around 10 minutes of instant sleep ...

tho still tired now ... expecting a really good rest tonite after practising wif galvin ...
so maybe i summarise today ...

so the location is in the basement level of republic poly ... first thought of going there was to see girls ... maybe i elaborate about girls in rp ...

suppose to meet up wif galvin hiok shana and vello ... actually i thought i was gonna be late today that i even msg galvin earlier ... to my surprise i was even considered early .. when there were pple who arrived later than me .. anyway walking to rp was actually pretty simple ... just follow shelter and cross a road or two and u are there ...

anyway ... there were several disconnects today ... it pisses quite a no. of pple ... i wasnt considered one since mine was 5 minutes ... there were pple who play 30 minutes and dc ... not once but more than that ... today was actually pretty simple .. i only played one game and the rest were walk overs ...

and we spent time fooling around when john was playing against girlyluck ... lol was really fun .. anyway .. girls there are pretty much the same as anywhere else ... but just a few that were more special were those singtel girls passing flyers ... and looked pretty cute xD ... when we were about to left .. one approach us and gave it before we left ... smth about the broadband stuff since they are working under singtel ..

she looked pretty cute at least .. anyway .. tml and the day after will still have competitions ... sat at 8pm(bullshit timing) and i tihnk sunday will be one whole day ... see how it goes ... at least new faces of girls is worth my trip xD

2007-12-14T18:56:00.001+08:00

kode5 day 1 ....

return home around 1 or 2 hr before now ... and i have to say today was a actually quite a fun day wif the jokes and stuff ....but felt i was really tired towards the end .. that when i reach home .. i actually fall asleep while sitting on my bed ... i actually have around 10 minutes of instant sleep ...

tho still tired now ... expecting a really good rest tonite after practising wif galvin ...
so maybe i summarise today ...

so the location is in the basement level of republic poly ... first thought of going there was to see girls ... maybe i elaborate about girls in rp ...

suppose to meet up wif galvin hiok shana and vello ... actually i thought i was gonna be late today that i even msg galvin earlier ... to my surprise i was even considered early .. when there were pple who arrived later than me .. anyway walking to rp was actually pretty simple ... just follow shelter and cross a road or two and u are there ...

anyway ... there were several disconnects today ... it pisses quite a no. of pple ... i wasnt considered one since mine was 5 minutes ... there were pple who play 30 minutes and dc ... not once but more than that ... today was actually pretty simple .. i only played one game and the rest were walk overs ...

and we spent time fooling around when john was playing against girlyluck ... lol was really fun .. anyway .. girls there are pretty much the same as anywhere else ... but just a few that were more special were those singtel girls passing flyers ... and looked pretty cute xD ... when we were about to left .. one approach us and gave it before we left ... smth about the broadband stuff since they are working under singtel ..

she looked pretty cute at least .. anyway .. tml and the day after will still have competitions ... sat at 8pm(bullshit timing) and i tihnk sunday will be one whole day ... see how it goes ... at least new faces of girls is worth my trip xD

2007-12-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

fast update

phew taking a break from my continuous studying of c++ ... the things i studied for database gone done the drain .. its like i study whole day .. things that were out from the review questions were very minimal ...

anyway ... today quite unlucky ... just out of my home and it rains ... first time i went to sch through lrt ... though its just one stop away from cck .... anyway .. come back home also get the same type of rain ... quite a rainy spree this few weeks ..

ok tml last paper for now ... still have like 2 questions or more to go through before sleeping ... today i felt very groggy when i reach sch ... simply i dun have enough sleep .. or do i ?

rainy days tend to make me think alot of personal matters and other things ... i guess today i really think alot xD ... been a bit sick the day before(sunday) .. but was just back to normal now ... my appetite decrease quite alot since sunday ... e.g i cant finish half a bowl of noddles ... thats just not like me .. i normally need loads of food ...

anyway today was pretty much the same ... need to get back my huge appetitie ... or shud i t.t ... eating makes me have more mood ... and makes me happy when i have mood ... no wonder i came to sch in despair and uber tiredness today.. i guess i know why xD ...

thats all ... concentrate on finish tml paper .. and see what happen next :)

2007-12-06T23:46:00.002+08:00

inflexible

sigh i dunno whats wrong wif me lately ... simple things like late attendance can really piss me off quite badly ... today reach around 8.15 to notice that mr.teko is configuring the power supply to connect his laptop or dunno what ...

i didnt quite expect anything also ... didnt expect much of him to mark me as 1(punctual) ... but when i enter the room ... classmates and one e3 guy say power short circuit or smth .. say can go down take attendance ... so i did .. and he freakin mark me as 0.5 .. while pple slightly earlier (1 minute ?) can mark as 1 ... what type of freaking shit was that about ...

ok 5 minutes ... late whatever is fine ... so if pple come in at 8.59 i think he also put 0.5 ... so whats the point man really ... sigh i think i am worked up because i am not there to listen but for the attendance ... apparantly most are ... and just that i didnt get it and i got pissed off i dun deny

and lesson only starts around 8.40 ... so i dunno what difference is there compared to going early ...i think bullshit like this can really pull down my marks

o ... when stepping out of my house today .. it was actually raining pretty heavily ...but after getting rdy step out ... walk a few steps .. it just stops ... like playing a fool of me ...

something made me awake today .... during elective ... notice a quite cute girl came in around 20 minutes later ... the class rep of that elective's friend (that class rep quite action one t.t and wants to act like some ... quite unexplainable but his attitude not likeable =/) and apprantly seating the first row ... they decided to sit right at the corner of the first row i am seating

this module really alot of pattern as well .. first thing that wakes me up was that he announce that common test is after term break .. i was like "wtf ...." because already so much shit after term break .. and its a good idea to start during that busy term ? i rather have it settled during the common test week ... t.t

ok anyway ... bed times stories soon followed after ... was about to sleep as well ... decide to have a drink before that ... tilt my head slightly to the right to reach my bag ... and i saw something every guy's hope/wish to see ... in direct translation is call walk-light(zou guang/zhao geng) whatever .. not impt ... apparantly she bend her body and her pants just drifted way below .. her .....

and it was obvious she didnt notice it ... a really obvious white panties ... can see half of it ... maybe u can call me a pervert ... but before doing so .. put urself in my shoes and see if u can resist the temptation =/ and she was just sitting 2-3 seats away from me ... a view so close.. anyone wont miss that chance ? the add on was she was quite cute as well .. just a bit meaty ...

cant concentrate when i was being tempted quite a while .. until teacher finally want to give tips for common test ... (just need to do 1 common test for this module ) apparantly studying for india was for fun ...

end of the day ... when class is realeased ... i think she put up a show for guys at the back as well ... she stood up suddenly and prepared to leave ... but she didnt realize she already zhao geng .. from side view i saw already obvious ... i think the guys at the back gave an expression like 0_0 ... good for them ...

sigh ... specialization makes me think what i like most ... i am still wondering what i like .... wondering if the specialization i chose will be my liking ... but before that i have something else to worry ... i guess is common tests ....

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2007-12-04T20:31:00.000+08:00

busy and busier

so ... half the sem almost gone and very soon comes the common test ... no idea why my common test grades are always lousier at the beginning and then gets better after exams ... last time till now always been like this

dun have one time i can have a clean nice grades right from the start .... even the nicest will have a flaw here and there .. e.g a c+ out of all b's for example .. or a 50 grades out of all 60+ grades ...

okay this week gonna be pretty tight ... so many tests,practical is comming up .... good thing is once all this shit is over .. i can finally relax ... but maybe not ... no idea ...

tml gonna have 2 lab test .. wayne kan's and song boh's .. hopefully the attention paid in class will pay off tml ... hopefully .. thusday ... hopefully can practise a little bit of action script ... saturday sunday gonna prepare for following common tests ... but starting right now ... since there are 2 gxl games already due ... very shitty schedule is this ....

next week monday database ct ... tuesday c++ ct ... wednesday study for elective ct ... thusday elective ct .... phew .... friday immediately offline tournament kode5 @ rp ... and i dun think i can even train before all that shit .... perhaps right after common test on thusday .. go home and practise only ....

sigh competition aside .. maybe i shud put in more effort in my future (my common tests) ... ok i think thats about it ... a simple 5-10 minutes write up ....

FIGHTING~!

2007-10-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

fat guys luck out ? hmm

just back from a wedding dinner of my mom's father's friend's son :P ... well went there around 7.30 at yishun area .... at first couldnt really find the place since my family and i arent familiar wif that place

but wif directions of a few pple ... managed to get though pretty easily .... when we reached i was like dunno what to do ... since all the pple i saw i wasnt familiar wif ... and i felt awkward when my parents when to greet the bride and groom

ended up staring some of the fish and prawns swimming lively in the tanks thats gonna be on the table for dinner few minutes later ... anyway found a seat and sat down awaiting for the "xing ren" as what the host says for the meaning of new couple or new husband and wife ...

before that they show the 2 couple pictures ... and some kissing pictures ... the guy is fat and his wife looks average but is pretty if u ask me ... so actually ... one do not have to worry bout being fat to get a gf or wife ? xD but maybe the guys good character win the girls heart perhaps =)

anyway i always believe the saying of .. never judge a person by the cover of a book . the couple was then welcomed wif the applause from the crowd... when they reach the stage

i thought the guy was gonna give a speech like most previous weddings i attended before .. but no .. just the normal stuff ...

whats mentioning today was also those songs that was played all along ... big hits like celine dions song ... winnie houston .. wow its really nice ... those are songs played on my dad's car or at home when i was pri 4 and have to depend on my dad's car for transportation during morning ... aside from memories it brought .. it was plain old nice ....

i didnt realize i actually enjoyed those songs even though they are old ... it was especially fitting since it symbolize a romantic evening of the couple ... and the ambiance simply adds on to everything .. gonna dig out those songs somewhere when i have the time ... two songs i remember was saving all my love for you & celine dion song (i dunno the tile) ... well overall the couple look pretty matched ...

anyway food came shortly ... it was overall okay ... er i dunno how to define nice quite well .. since i get statisfied easily when i am full and i dun really bother how nice it taste ... as long its filling ...

something noticeable ... there werent many pple of if any pple of my group age there .... most are either small kids + parents or grown ups ... but what was i expecting anyway :P ...ok tired now ... taking an early rest xD

2007-10-25T22:22:00.000+08:00

emo day ??

felt very shag today ... do everything like no mood or interest ... i didnt even bothered to bring out my ds out to play during train trips today ... ds games really satisfy me thankfully ... sometime one ought to know simple things can always be enjoyable with the way it is designed

anyway today the lessons are really boring ... tried quite hard to put interest in the network module but just not today .. simply plain no mood ...my eyes always felt heavy ... can sleep anytime

not sure what exactly cause my foul mood today ... tho its hard to tell outside ... inside i feel moody and awkward ...in fact i actually planned to go home straight around 3 ... didnt in the end tho .. since i took the initiative to buy the 6.30 cents elective book ... it friggin sucked and is boring ...

it can easily bore the class to death ... so many were sleeping during todays class ... i manage to stay awake ... but was torturous ... around 5+ receive message from my sec sch friend nizam ... so long nvr see him and he msg me today ...

apparantly his gf having hockey match and asked me to come over to have a look wif him .... even ask me things like tammy etc lol ... well initially thought of joining him ... but well ... i dun want to let him see how moody i was today later make him question things like"what happen today" "why look so glum " alike questions ... i dun wanna spoil his mood on supporting his gf

sigh .. my 6mths old bag's ( or more) handle just tore off today ... dunno whats wrong also ... my bag also not that heavy ... but well maybe is a good thing since it wasnt very comfortable afterall ... though this incident didnt quite add on to my poor mood ... infact i didnt really felt that much since it was screwed up this morning ...

only made me carry it in my hands around like some dumb ass .. have to get one of those 1.20 clips to hook it on from shopping arcade ... and collected my elective book at the same time ..

upon travelling all the way to library cafe ... almost fell down not once but twice while climbing up those high flat stairs ... luckily no one was around to witness it .. or else it is quite embarassing for me ... alertness today was halve of how it is suppose to be ..thus doing things today was quite half-hearted all along which is beyond my control... since thats not the way i do things usually

today is just a pretty bad day ... be it over and a better tml ... gonna get a new bag also zzz ...

2007-10-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

1st week

things are pretty much the same as it was in the past ... maybe this time more stressful ... who knows ... but worse have always yet to come =/ ...

thusday was actually one of my worst day in history in nyp .... first is i had lack of sleep the day before ... slept only for 6hrs + and they day before that i didnt sleep especially well also .. simply put is 2 days straight without enough rest and went to sch on thus ...

it was extremely tiring .... eyes like auto shut every now and then ... and especially during elective ... china and india studies ... to hell wif it also ... lecturer says that it is suppose to help for business .. since he claim he was from buisness school .... maybe being tired that day was an add on to the already bad day ... poor mood

also something funny was i was like the extra there lol ... no one from same class ... and the rest of the pple at least have a few of their friends from the same class ... felt very strange to the surroundings ... like no one i am especially close wif .... 21 pple ... seems like i am the extra 1 to make the 20 number odd ... dunno what type of planning is this also =/

at the time when we are needed to group ourself of 5-6 ... i knew i was in deep shit also ... luckily i still know samuel from e1 ... and the 2 hardcore study pple from e1 ... and got into the group ... felt really odd but what choice do i have also =/ ... beggars cant be choosers ... but i was amazed how the 2 study pple (used the term pple instead of nerds t.t) interact and let me in the conversation ... and they were really professional o_0 i felt quite odd when i was offered a handshake when i got into the team also ... den i like no choice have to shake everyone hands and self-intro -_-

quite thankful actually ... the way how i see them in the past shud stop =/ keep making fun of how hardcore they were in studying .. like make me feel a little guilty now lol ... anyway ... end of lesson i actually thought i need someone hp no to contact wif ... but before i could even ask ... one of them straight away ask for mine instead ...

and the other guy actually remembered my name and said goodbye ... i mean it was only for like a few seconds and he make a point to remember my name ... the worse thing is i dun even remember his lol ... den i was like good bye er ..... and needed him to clarify again xD

sigh dunno what izzit like to work wif pple i dunno (awkward).. even samuel will be different .. since we were only ex-clanmates in war3 and nth else ... luckily and thankfully .. elective is only once per week ... and after project is still alone to study for it .... sigh the old hag also says that its easy to score in this ... he better mean it or else ... zzz ..

sigh ... to think i have to work like shit for java again ... bad memories really reappear fast and right infront of me ... java really no joke ... some simplest programmes i try i need alot of time as compared to the others ... really need to put my ass on it ... but thankfully last sem was still alrite and i actually learn alot thanks to lecturer ...

hope i can continue this motivation to learn ... and not having the need to heavily rely on anyone .... year 1 was the worst when i am exactly like and elderly that's fully dependant ... shud not make history repeat ...

that feeling sucked and is extremely uncomfortable ... so a new resolve for me is to get started in the early stage ... since i always need to put extra extra effort compared to the rest of the class ... ...

p.s inspired by genius of hardwork rock lee from naruto lol ... "a trash/drop out can surpass a genius with hardwork" .... i love this sentence :)

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2007-10-17T19:44:00.000+08:00

tiring

sch started since monday ... currently went to sch twice ... both of it i must say ... was pretty tiring ... monday was really tiring cause lasting from 10-8 was pure torture ... 10 hrs of sch ...

well wasnt really that bad as in sch life ... just certain modules bores me more ... such as consecutive java during monday .... i thought sem1 covered java already .... so sem2 shudnt have any programming related like year1 itself ... how wrong can i be ... instead everyone was granted wif another programming language c++ =.=

if that wasnt enough .... we have another java related module during night class .... total up for 4 hrs of programming .... its just sickening ... my interest is really poor for this module .... thus learning it was just a pain in the ass ...

its like forcing myself to do it ... which sucks ... well well ... shudnt complain further ... instead look for ways to make my life easier .... i think must practise even more .... my foundation is still quite weak ...

during holidays .... i suddenly feel the need to work hard all of a sudden ... upon hearing issues like university ... it suddenly motivate me to work harder .... cause poly pple gonna compete wif jc as well ... its kinda scary ... dunno why didnt think of it during year1 ... was really too carefree back then

well aiming to go uni is part of any poly student wish ... since worrying too much doesnt helps ... maybe i shud work constantly from beginning ... instead of rushing in the end .....(though it always work for me lol)

well dun like to study also ... but wif war3 out of my mind(competetive) i have more time for something else ... actually when organizers announce no competitions etc .... it might be a good thing also ... always have been trying to find ways to get it off so that gaming dont consume my entire time ...

ok anyway today went to sch .... everything was pretty normal ... wif occasional cute girls here and there heh ... but today while walking to the lift ... i saw my nemesis ... nickt lol ... well back then i really hated him for being a fag ... cunning behaviour ... make my life miserable during my possible only overseas tourney in china ....

today was very different ... i actually didnt realize much around me since i have earphones on ... but then i realize one guy smiled at me and gave a hand gesture ... was actually him lol ... i smiled and replied back and walk off ... is nth much ... but maybe we both knew there isnt much competition anyway ... so no more need to be enemies ? maybe he is just putting up a fake face ? i dunno ... well to think of it ... really played him the most in whichever tourneys

played him like 7-8 times already ... lost 1 to him and won the rest .. but maybe i shud thank him for making the tense atmosphere for a competition it suppose to have ... all my games are always 2-1 wif him ... so its always tense to play the last and final one ...

monday i even met coffee as well ... (my bros navy friend) similarly i was oblivious until he tap my shoulder .... dunno why i didnt notice also lol ... sigh tml will be an 8 o clock lesson .. and having an elective thats gonna be different from the rest of the class ... sounds really boring in itself also .. cant even heck care and sleep when its in a tutorial room ... i rather just stay in a lecture and have lectures one ear in and out the other ...

makes my life easier for boring modules ... in a way ... i really miss marketing dictation than this ... shall see how it goes tml =/... having a boring feeling bout it tho =/

2007-10-11T21:59:00.001+08:00

time flies

time always flies especially when one is having great time and in enjoyment ... days past very slowly when things are done unwillingly ... (studies) ...

felt like it was just monday ... and suddenly tml is already friday .... and i felt like it was just a few hours of duration for time to get past like that =/ ... sigh ... sch starting abit too soon .... + sch on monday ... = monday blues .... geez

well well ... avoidance just dun solve anything ... so rather hang on wif it =/ ... was getting lazier and lazier to blog .... just today i realize i didnt even put up a song for my blog ... i think i really blogging lesser and lesser nowadays ... hopefully the code i put in will be working ... just check that there was no song because of bandwidth exceed ...

this few days been raining on and off ... it really sucked ... i hate rainy days ... today after receiving my gxl prize ( a cheque .... rather have cash t.t) i wanted to go home early so that i can have some swimming later on ... to my dismay the sunny morning seems to be unrelated totally to the weather later ... =/

but well .. around 6+ went for a jog instead ... realize my stamina is really building up from swimming ... gotta do it more often .... hmm .. swimming ? running ?

prefer swimming since it takes less effort from ur legs and is more enjoyable ... running really need motivation especially in a hot weather ... even if it is good weather it just takes more effort =/ but well .. both is always a good choice xD ...

tho i rather have basketball if i can ..... last time wif friends .. one session always last from 8-12/13 roughly 4-5 hrs .... tiring but is pure fun ... one time the longest was 8-4 lol ... basically a group of friends played den have breakfast .... den when they left ... 2 friends continued to play ... heh that was back then ... now is like hardly play at all ... not much chance to play as well =/ ...

well not that i cant play ... just wish i dun have to play wif shit kids/gangsters ... i just wanna play wif good close friends ... always joke around at each other mistakes and skills ... more fun compared to play wif strangers .... at the same time being competetive =)

interest die out after a while when left untouched ... yea i feel this way for certain things ... but just not basketball .. i always look forward for it ... even after a long time ... or even after years ... guess its my favourite sport ....true sport =)

2007-10-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

1 week zzzz ..

been quite sometime since i last blogged .. and quite alot of stuff happened every now and then ... if i were to list them all down here ... then it can become endless ... so maybe i just summarize here and there ...

right now ... it seems there will only be around 1 week left to play ... sigh .. really ... time flies .. life is short .. sounds so scary but is a fact actually ... so just dun think about it is the best ...

well pple have different views if to switch back to sch life ... for me is .. i feel neutral(mood) cause .. there is always time to play and time to study (which i dun like) or perhaps it would be better off if i were to slack a little more ... but really life isnt just bout slacking even if it is more enjoyable(humans always seek easier paths )

facing reality asap and adapting it is the way of life ... complain and complain but in the end still need to get it done =/ ... in every poly students case shud be graduating ... how boring how stressful how tiring still must finish all the sh!t given and graduate .... complain really no use .. guess i already learned this ...

the past few days/weeks .. alot happen .. but den i dunno why i didnt bothered to blog it ... just that i feel i dun have the mood to blog back then ... now .. soso ... been taking a really healthy life style ... must adapt to it ... so went for swimming and jogging pretty regularly .... first time in 2-3 years since i swim ... last swim during sec 4 (when i was learning How to swim back then t.t and in the end passed the most basic test :) )

anyway ... first day of the swimming was wednesday iirc ... it was a weekday ... least to my expect was there were actually quite a handful of pple ...(girls heh) ..went around noon time ... and i even have to ask the counter what i have to do to get through t.t ... (quite shameful ) and conversation ended with "plz enjoy ur day" ... quite please to hear that

had 40 cents coins into the locker and i almost forgot my goggles before closing ... luckily t.t ... all that done i was rdy to take a plunge since 2-3 years .. water was warm in the noon .. i rather have it cool ... but well .... anyway i did freestyle ... within around 50 metres .. i were panting really bad ... really lack of stamina .. but after a while .. getting the hang of it ... i manage to swim further and wif less effort .... during the swim saw a group of girls 3-4 playing at the slides beside the adult pool ...(two main pools ... one for entertainment one for swimming ) they took the slides and i can hear the screams quite loudly ...

but well ... only one girl attract my attention ... she wore pink .. good figure a side was her good looks ... but well just see for leisure ... den i continued on some long distance swim ....cause i dun have enough stamina .. i started to swim across the breath and afterwards across the length ...

went for 3 times ... 2nd day have the least pple ... less than 10 ... but was good for training .. until a group of kids join around 5pm -_-;; .. the experience ? horrible ... they were noisy ... and took up space ... but cant be helped when they are having lessons ... the coach also quite sian to see some quite poor disciplined ...

third day ? worst of the worst .. i borrowed goggles from my uncle and have it broked t.t ... feel really bad .. whats worse is swimming without goggles ... and i was wearing contact lens ... brand new somemore .... i closed as hard as possible when i dip inside the pool with my head .... and i wasnt used to it at first .... i was actually quite discourage to swim and would be better off going home straight away ... but well ... not being a loser ... i decide to stay ... den i realize there were pple swimming without goggles too ... one guy ... and one woman ... den i observe how they swim ...

i notice they didnt open their eyes quite often ... so i realize i would swim wif "feel" ... i only open my eyes once in a while ... but after a while i am used to it .... quite inspired with those who swim without goggles that day xD they can do it ... so i believe it is not impossible .... besides impossible is nothing rite ? lol ...

went back to tell my uncle the bad news of spoiling his goggles ... he was nonchalant thankfully ... i offered one which i bought to repay him ... but in the end it cant fit to him and ended me having it ... that day was actually quite sucky ....

my games against a shit may player was quite bad ... won lesser than he won ... but well i also dun play that often ... so i think it was okay ...

long post ... update when i have to ...

2007-09-22T22:06:00.000+08:00

ds lite hunt

Today went out to check on ds lite's price ... seriously it is like being a carrot waiting for the chef to chop on ....

today around 3+4+ decide to went outside to check out the price at bukit panjang plaza first ... since its the nearest ... didnt bother about lot 1 .. i know comics collection price is always amusing ...

ok anyway headed to bbp(short form) .. the things there seem to get more boring already ... wasnt as lively as it was used to be ... i remember last time at least have soul garden ... the arcade have very good and latest games ... bowling centre ... now like all dun have ... the arcade is like for kids ...

so i wasnt there for that tho ... i went to 3rd story game master to check on the ds ... okay first i saw one auntie buying ds .... the assistant teaching her have to start from scratch since she dun have much knowledge of ds .... and dunno etc etc etc

next was another man ... he bought 4 ds -_-;; ... for kids for whoever ... damn rich ... then i ask the boss .. he state this price

ds pack + r4 + 1gb = 320 that dont sound okay cause it shud cost around 300+ ... den is i ask 2 gb price ... it shot up to 350 ... how can that be ... how can it be more space = more expensive ... 1gb is around 18-20 ... 2gb how can be 50 ?

ok if that wasnt convincing i went to bangkit ... 3 stops away from bbp... so the person have a much better attitude and looked more honest ... but the price is around the same ... 354 .. but he explain .. 1gb 38 2gb is 10 dollars more only ... 48 ... the way they calculate is really strange and doesnt seem to make common sense .... but well at least i appreciate this guy service more ... when i said thanks and walked off .. he at least replied wif a np ... the boss from bbp just ignore me ... attitude ..

o today also coincidence ... during the time when i took the escalator ... saw that girl again ... apparently wif her mom again also lol ... think she is really different from other girls ... saturday and a afternoon ... most girls shud be going out .... hang out .. but she chose to come out wif her mom ... really rare ... she also dress very simply red shirt black shorts ... but

that alone can win over alot of girls who dress perfectly or whatever ... i always prefer those dress very normal and looks normal ... but this case is a bonus since she was cute as well lol ... saw she went inside popular ... so i just act act want to buy some stuff den go the music section ... also didnt notice what she want to buy since she was at very inside of the shop ...

saw a few glimpse den went off liao lol ... since eyes also quite dry ... and i am no stalker =) ..now adays very hard to find these types ... go out wif parent one ... so filial ... but i am not the bad also(thicked skin) ... since before i went out i even ask my dad what he want to eat :P i got him some fried chicken cutlet from the taiwan style store *zha ji pai* not vulgarities ar lol ...

okok before went home just wanted to laugh at the price of the ds at lot 1 .. 257 .. the 2 places i went was 238 .... lol have fun ... i see how pple is going to buy that .. o also went to the arcade ... quite appaled by how typical sg players are ... wanted to play kof for fun ... den one guy noticed i waiting there want put credit already ... he finish his game liao den faster put another one .. instead of offering the seat to me .... well standard behaviour also lar ... at least i dare to say i dun act like this ...

ok thats okay i played and lost( too long never play) then i walked over to play ggx ... den the guy look (opposite guy another person) at me as if giving the very proud face .. actually i dun really mind it .. if i ask him challenge me gg i really ... :P ... den wats funnier was his arrogance actually lead him to shake his legs vigorously ... play like some very pros ... act here and there ... since his friend there also .... den he lost 3 straight games to the guy(who didnt offer the seat to me earlier) ... before i go off his face was as black as dunno wat lol .... really entertaining

bugis also got some shit act like this ... one sol guy really got attitude problem .. even though his skills is good(went to japan just to play gg? lol?) he lose will scold ccb ... win then will give a grin or very delight look ...i dun expect that person to lose to be happy but what the hell.... why must scold vulgaraties unnecessary ... sian typical gangster like behaviour ... and he is worse .. he never offer the seat ... just keep on poping coins in ... even i standing at the back of him to watch ... (him get slaughtered lol) he didnt offer to bystanders .... standard ....

kk write till here .... nice luck strike up soon ... fighting!~

2007-09-14T01:15:00.000+08:00

strange feeling ...

felt very awkward nowadays ... the feeling of slacking at home and rotting seem to be strange ... i think i am getting sicked of rotting =/ ... though it is something i look for ... now i dun really seem to enjoy just as much ...

been having strange dreams again -__-;;; keep having dreams have to do with school ... yesterday night was a dream of me in sch .. not taking exams this time ... but in a restaurant and normal lessons carry on from there lol ... sound so strange right ... den ate and listen in class ... so strange ...

but this time round .. the dream was a bit more vivid than the ones i took exams .... actually able to see the faces quite well .. one part was where i accidentally went into another class ... den somehow a girl was looking at me .. and she appear to be very cute also ... but her face doesnt resemble anyone in real life .. ... just a totally unfamiliar face ...... really hate this kind of dream cause really wish it was for real ...

though a dream is always better than nothing at all rite :P ... today while playing war3 ... kept getting mistaken for someone else ... and i was even told not to smurf when i play a team game .... i dunno whats wrong wif some singaporeans now adays ... its not like their buisness for whatever i do ....and some typical singaporeans use the i assume ... therefore it must be like this attitude ... just didnt think enough ... but i always think that these kind of pple always exist .. dun think all are like these ...

bad thing about the cyber world is the freedom to speak anything they want with their identity hidden most of the time ... and there are always pple to abuse it ... and i think its just childish ...

okay thats how i feel today ... awkwardness sure takes time to get over wif ....

2007-09-10T18:08:00.000+08:00

New chapter ? ....

well in holiday mood totally ... but kept having weird dreams of me back in the o level times -_-;; .. very funny .. i think at least 3-4 dreams that were relevant or similar ... and mostly not about taking the test ... but being late for ... buying new specs before that lol ... well dreams can be funny sometimes .. cause it dun make any sense

anyway ... finally got a new blog skin up ... well i actually tried alot before hand ... just that my limited experience ..(in fact brand new experience =/) do not permit( heh sounds familiar ?:P) me to have my ideal blog made ... well ... i was quite bored while trying to make one from scratch .. but it was too tough ... yeah .. so to start with something simple ... i just designed the blogskin .... quite fun .. and there after ... arrange the blog box ... arrange here and there ... the colors etc ... well i did not generate or make any of the codings ... its really tough .. just take a look at the blog view source code ... its actually tedious

maybe first time trying it ... thats why tough ... but well i will pick up skills here and there ... hopefully next time can make an ideal blog that i want to ... my blog currently very simple ... but well i just like the color ... :P

well today was like the first ... sleeping really like a pig ... well to alot it is no big deal .. for me it is ... woke up only around 1150 while slept from like 12 ... kinda like slept more over from my ritual time ... which is around 8-9 ...

must be really tired ... o also went to sentosa with friends few days back ... well ,,, have to say .. other than the swimming and playing volley ball .. pretty much left with nothing to do ... and its really hot that most rather stay under the shade and stuff ... including me =/ ..

there were also a large group of girls in bikini just opposite of us from our location ... well basically its any guys paradise isnt it :P ... well ... but i already learn that ... see but no action .. whats the use .. =/ so it gets kinda boring when u think like that ... no action means u cant be close friends with them etc ...even just friends ... but i doubt there will be alot of girls will be open to strangers =/ ...

but well .. at least there is better than nothing to see rite xD ... also dunno what happen .. was it my skill .. the wind .. or etc ... playing soccer or frisbee .. ... the ball that i kicked will approach towards the girls ... and trust me .. it wasnt my intention =/ and if i was interested in any of them .. i would just approach them .. i dun really rely on such underhand tricks =x ...

the day was actually quite fun ... when playing volleyball especially towards the end of the day =) the rest shud really know what i mean .. so i dun need to explain further (sabotage is always fun :P) ...

okay .. that would end for my first a.b.a blog ... emg girl really owns xD

2007-09-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

Last final post!?

with this blog :P planned to start a new blog design with my creativity ... actually not creativity since i will be copying stuff here and there ... since there is always a starting point to copy the best before u are confident to start on ur own ...

believe thats what pros do ... for me it to apply to everything ... games ... ggxx ... war3 .... basketball techniques ... soccer techniques .. and whats not ?

sigh speaking of basketball ... saw an advertisement on the papers ... i saw the up is 25 for a spardling .. dunno brand -_-;; ... but then .. in the end it write quite small ... for members ... i was like ..........................

like happiness that lasted for a few seconds -_-;; ... anyway .. like no contact with basketball friends ... times have changed and that most of my really good old bball pals are very limited ... 2 i considered closest with .. one in nyp one in army ... so not much oppotunity ... the rest which are just as close .. either quit basketball or in other polys or with different schedule =( ..

didnt actually realize how lost in touch we were until i saw basketball yesterday xD ... so i may be equally as bad for not catching up wif them lol ...

ok so ... didnt really blog since papers finished in dunno when ... wednesday i think ... ( i really hate to bother about dates now adays .... since sec sch times ... homework pass up wif no dates .. or written exams wif no dates as well )

reason is that really beat after exam ... that caught up some good sleeping right after ... maybe write a little what i had been doing past few days since exams finished

right after exam that day ... friends offered to go to zoo ... dont get me wrong ... didnt join them ... first is that got something on later ....cant get home late ... and i am not as interested going to zoo as compared to doing something else ... well ... at least i know i am frank ... i know what i like and what i dun like afterall =) ..

zoo really didnt appeal to me ... okay so whats left is bugis ... went to arcade and actually realize no one to challenge ... was like very bored for the first credit ... since it was just trashing of cpus ... quite boring ...

second game .. decide to use testament ... den around midstage ... cant remember ... den pple start to challenge ... not really sure how many of them .. or may be just one person ... i got a 10-0 streak wif testament before i lost ... o and one part worth mentioning ... that guy played sol and he felt so angry after losing to me around full life when i only have like one hit before ko health ... very entertaining ... he bang the machine xD

one game he purposely press the taunt button by pressing start after he win me one round... must be to show how angry he was ? (p.s ... sol taunt button make sol points middle finger :P) he may be in glorious for that .. but he end up giving me half tension bar the next round ... i was like lol ... can use tension right from the start ... was pretty funny how acting smart turn to negative effects (i always love to laugh at pple like these ...)

so when i lost at 10-0 .. played order-sol and got a 5-0 den no one challenged already .. so went to get shirts before going back again ... as usual no one challenge first ... den later on johnny guy challenged me ...
i got a 13-0 streak against him ... i was like .. geez this guy never get bored challenging ? (using a.b.a) .. this is like my longest streak yet ... mad japanese players get 38+ ... 50+ .... so mine is nth ...

anyway ... its both tiring and shiok ... because tired after exams is normal ... and keep winning ... what else ... however .. challenged back ... won till 5-0 before he quit ... he didnt bang the machine ... but i realized he is very rich ... 5+13 is around 18 credits ... regardless .. later 5-0 become 9-0 ... 4 noobs tho -_- ...and they couldnt really wait until i finish the game ? i was at stage 9 already .... and final round is only at stage 10 ...

quite entertaining when keep winning ... thats why i like ggxx ... vice versa and u feel like quitting the game tho =/ ..

okay anyway ... thats pretty much ... the next day went again because need to change the shirt size ... i am not stupid ... just that the person didnt let me try ... cant blame me ? ... i bought from other shops ..not the usual one ... and the person selling shirts to me ... was a shit punk kid ... if i knew what kind of shit he was .. didnt bother to buy .. i just bear wif it for the nice shirts ... maybe i am too used to the old boss who always offer me good deals t.t ...

ok thats pretty much for an entry ... wont post anything already until i can make a decent blogskin ...